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Relationship stuff:June broke off contact 9-19-99 after I left the previous night without condeming or critizing her for her trashing and talking cruelly to me and turning on the bright lights when I was falling asleep. She, 3 days later, wrote these trashing - goodbye e-mails:
Hi David, Spent a few days allowing myself to see where my collusion came into recent events. I allowed misperceptions to occur because I confused setting boundaries with establishing boundaries. Specifically, I told you that the dirt and disorder in your apartment distressed me, but I breached my own boundaries by continuing to visit you there. I won't do that again. You say I trash you. My friend, you trash yourself and then blame me when I react to it. You trash your own body by inviting disease. You tolerate dead skin, excess pounds, skin lesions for years. You trash your apartment, relationships, etc. I don't do it to you. I only call you on it because it distresses and frustrates me. As I see it, our incompatibility comes from the following: I am a communicator. to me, if a tree falls in the forest and no eardrums/minds hear it, if I speak and no one understands, I have not communicated. the "I" that I enjoy being does not exist. I suspect that you are essentially a thinker. Whatever you think....exists. What you think....you are, whether or not you have communicated this to others. I breach my own boundaries again when I get frustrated with your inability to communcate. You insist that people perceive you as you perceive yourself but you communicate this vision of yourself neither verbally nor behaviorally. Yes, I agree you learned to duck too soon. Duck and hide. No glory in that. No guts, no glory. No cross, no crown. Specifically, I couldn't care less if you/Buddha don't know how to operte a bush trimmer. Never asked you to do it. What do you get out of insisting on doing it without reading the instructions? If you damaged your fingers, you couldn't play the bass, work the computer, do accupressure. Talk about trashing yourself! What do you get out of that? Look, I'm not going to go on. I take full responsibility for my failure to hold my boundaries. In my own defense, I must say that if I did, I'd have followed the lead of your clairvoyant friend and the first time you played "Uproar" I would have said "I'm out of here." But I wanted to get to know you. this has been a perfect example to me of what Annette refers to as my being passive-aggressive. Don't know how life will treat me now as I hold my boundaries. will I just miss out on adventures I've had? O will I invite more compatible people into my life. Don't know. Remains to be seen. Take care. Love, June
AND:Hi David, I spent the last few days letting things sift, wondering how I colluded in the difficulty. A couple of things came clear. If you think the following trashes you, then we probably should just wish each other well and let it go at that. In fact, I wouldn't bother doing all this work if I didn't care. The first area has to do with boundaries and the second with reality: My collusion was allowing misperception to occur. The dirt and disorder of your apartment distressed me every time I was there. I thought (mistakenly) that setting boundaries was establishing boundaries. Not so. Every week I visited you and breached my own boundaries. The distress then came out in other ways. To wit(ness): You said you were showering to please me. How could I criticise that? What bothered me was that since I shower at the gym and only use my bathtub at home, the shower is rarely used. If it's not cleaned, the water spots last a long time. Doesn't sound like such a big deal, right? Right! But the burden of breached boundaries was painful to me and I let go of it right then and there. My fault! I should simply have refused to go to your apartment instead of allowing you to misperceive my experience there. This is what Annette means about my passive-aggressive behavior. You tell me on the phone that you now see the applicability of patterns of cosmic order to local order and I END
My response is that she sends double messages: your too fat - you should not reduce your food and don't eat enough, you have no right to be a therapist to Lisa - not a friend or tell June what is wrong with her stuff, and you have a skin condition - but don't take strong vitamns. Now her error was coming over to my place at all!
I will put more later so as to get it out in open for me.
05/25/00I wrote: ONLY 1 MIND?: Your passive agressive fails to fill me in on your essential rules ONLY 1 MIND?: I was called same in 1978 and worked on it with a leading therapist ONLY 1 MIND?: Most of the things You say do not apply because I haven't filled you in on my progress ONLY 1 MIND?: Are you there or did your computer malfunction and go online during your absence? your computer was on line, but you didn't repl;y so maybe there is a problem. Anyway: I cannot know or reply to your implicit rules, and feelings of appropiate behavior, but your evaluations
She wrote before:David, I didn't want to get into backing and forthing about "he said, she said" and "he meant, she meant." The fact is, neither of us accepts the other's needs and behaviors. For example, the week before last I didn't even miss you till 10 am because I was sleeping and when i got up it was dark in the room and I didn't want to wake you. Llewellyn called and we talked for an hour. That's why I didn't miss you. It's no big deal. I was trying not to disturb you but you seem to react to it as an affront. I stormed at you not for trying to help in the yard but for insisting on using a dangerous tool without considering or following the instructions. You put your safety in danger and frazzled my nerves. I tried to avert my eyes but I knew you didn't have your right hand on the handle bar. Yes, I sotrmed at you and I would at anyone who endangers precious fingers (and your are more precious to you than most.) About the shower door: I do not use my shower. I shower at the gym and when i'm home I take a bath in the tub. So if my shower is used and not dried off, the hard water spots do not get cleaned off regularly once a week by me as they do in most peoples's homes. I know you don't clean your shower and I did not want to have to clean up after you, so I asked you to do it. The alternative would have been to tell you not to shower here. That would have been difficult since you said you were doing it for me. (This is a dilemma for me because I don't want to discourage you showering. Most people do it as a matter of course. But to you, it is a gift to me) but I also don't want to clean up after you. I you had done it right away, I would have known you did it. But since you said you'd do it later, I didn't know if you'd done it. I saw the spots on the shower door and figured you had not and mentioned it. I did not storm at you. The incident of my turning on the light when you were falling asleep happened the previous week. I apologized for that. I apologize again. Poems are feelings. Yes. And behaviors are behaviors. Feelings of love are not love. When you blow a smelly fart just as I'm ready to come to bed and don't even imagine what a turn-off it is though I have made my feelings very clear, I do not call that a cordial or loving behavior. When you say you're going to smack Peanut if she goes near your bass without it even occurring to you to place a barrier there, I wonder why you think a dog is supposed to be a better problem solver than a human (especially such a brilliant human...by your own admission.) When you fart and drink too much beer and "take all you can" at my daoughter's without a small offer to contribute your share and then expect all this to be forgotten and to be accepted by my family, you indicate that you think you can do whatever you want with impunity. That people will forget your behavior just because you now want to bdo whatever you want no matter whose home you're in. I DO NOT say whatever I want. The problem is, I say what I need and try not to harp or nag. Then I storm, as you say. That's what Annette calls passive-aggressive. She's right. I am borderline passive-aggressive. (I didn't say you were, I said I am.) And I don't know what to do about that. If I didn't shut my mouth half the time my boundaries were breached, we would have ended our friendship before it got off the ground. I thought you would find cleanliness appealing when you felt loved. I thought you would not feel you had to take all you could when you felt loved. Evidently not. You say you respect and admire and honor me. I feel that you FEEL love for me but your behavior indicates that you are married to old self-trashing behaviors. I still don't know what you get out of them. Power struggle? Maybe. Maybe. And you have won! When you help me fold my laundered sheets and laugh that you fold yours by crumpling them, you're telling me that you insist on disorder and that you don't care about my needs. When you insist on keeping thinly bagged food in the same cupboard with poisons, you're telling me you don't care about safety or my concern for yours. When you do nothing observable with all the help and work and time I have given you on your project, all I can assume is that I wasted it on you. There is something about disorder nd isolation that you value more than interacting with others in an effective way. The greatest hurt for me came a long time ago when i realized I could never marry you or live with you. Your marriage to dirt and disorder won. Maybe I should have left then but I loved you and wanted to get to know you. I still love you. Just don't want (can't take ...at my age) the frustration of having to keep breaching my own boundaries to spend any time and space with you. I can love you from a distance. June
We talked and shouted. I came to the conclusion to take Responsibility: I need to plan what can be done to upgrade my apartment and submit it to June to see if that is what she has in mind. No more mind reading. Then make it into segements. First: do walls and kitchen and shelves. Second: organize books and desk spaces. Third: organize closets. Fourth: Organize work and presentations.
jour99 # 1My relationship with women and emotion explores new ground for a "Buddha", but is very appropiate given the conditions that changed, namely marriage based on "love" and living alone apart from multigenerational accumulation of wisdom and disconnection of children from family by public education. What is the meaning of this? It is even hard to broach this as subject of inquiry because humans cast this as liberation from "bad" or ineffective [home education] traditions. In the case of public education there is a leap upwards but it leaves behind a clear resource which can now be realized. Just like Suziki with computers, home teaching can be reinstated as a resource for schools that can progress at personal speed.
01/18/99 7:54 AMI am her: now is forever. She is me: now is forever.
jour99 # 2Holographic mind: each part contains all the other parts or enfolds into / from them. This is like the way the orchestra plays the same music but each plays a different part, except the string sections. In this case the strings represent cloned cultural mind or shared one mind and the winds the color / brightness of the midbrain and the percussion represent the reptilian brain and the conductor the ego or "god"!
The new point is the enfolded reality which I am experiencing with June: the feelings open up to the intellect where what is happening is so complete, it is beyond words and concepts. Conscious mind doesn't have a clue: but we both experience an opening up to each other and that is the holographic enfolded becoming unfolded. Thus in TORI openness is the experience of holographic mind! As well as how I learned to open to humans at ACOA who were anomnious as to "ego" and status of high/low from astrological nodes. Music as symphonies are themselves a model of this enfolding holographic process!
jour99 # 3This enfolding holographic mind is illustrated by the physicist David Bohm who put a large drop of black ink in a cylinder of glycerin and after rotating the cylinder the ink trailed off into threads until it filled the entire cylinder and made the glycerin a little darker. When he reversed the rotation, low-and-behold the drop of ink reformed itself: that is his illustration of how the holographic mind which is everywhere but nowhere emerges into consciousness and "opens up". This is the same structure by which symphonies like Mozart and Beethoven reveal themselves.
jour99 # 4It is as if the music or poetry is unwinding from some deep source that is opening up in the mind of the composer or poet or religious person or someone like Edger Cacye. J Chasteen?: I am surprised that the ink drop reformed ONLY 1 MIND?: so was I ONLY 1 MIND?: When I share this with others it becomes very powerful for them ONLY 1 MIND?: There are so many new things of science to show the same things that others saw so long ago. JT Chasteen?: i am looking up help on http://www.zdnet.com/zdtv/callforhelp/archive/0,3651,2100113,00.html
01/20/99 7:01 AM
jour99 # 5The music like a holographic mind is completely present everywhere in the orchestra, but like the organs is operated on differently. The metaphor of the ink drop can be replaced by rolled up tape measures where the steel ones are the reptilian / percussion / beat or time signature and the cloth tapes are the melodies / key signatures and other instruments. The winds as the mid-brain is self organizing like the organs and the strings as neocortex is shared as if many share one holographic functional operator. This allows supervision to take place as the conductor!
jour99 # 6As water comes to a boil, the temperatures are incoherent and the sound - pitch is higher than when it is completely boiling: then the temperatures are coherent and the pitch is stable. It has reached a limit in one dimension and is passing into a different state - dimension [liquid to air]. Thus music in its beat is in one dimension and the melody is in two.
When I say I love June it is a recognition of our oneness even before we met. We love our live and fulfill ourselves with the same values and qualities and operations even if with different events and content. Does this open a oneness with our reptilian sensuality?
4PM My lecture - book club can be about
jour99 # 7building skillfulness from the position that new facts have emerged about the structure of being human and as to what is human mind and how it works. These new facts and the resulting skills emerged after we seniors acquired our life skills in our homes of origin or from our education. In fact the prevailing theories have been proven wrong and even worse: harmful to the development of mind. They fall in the same category as the worst crimes of the most horrible totalitarian governments such as the Nazi and Russian Socialist regimes.
01/26/99 7:14 AMHarvel Hendrix: getting the Love you want. The jour99 # 8 infant cry pre-figures many events of the adult: we expect the universe or significant other to respond without our asking or formulating the nature of our need, and we reject anything given if it needs to be asked for directly. Thus we cry out with criticism and power struggle "domination and cohersion" behavior. Hendrix claims that this is a program - procedure of the first minuets of birth that has not turned off! Excellent, but my proposal is that the infant of all species and the human was / is programmed to take a self organized action, such as moving to the teats, to satisfy needs. With humans, our original program is to be connected to the mother and on her belly immediatly after birth. Humans are born premature and mature at a different level of resolution. jour99 # 9 As I realized early on, we "slow time" to stretch out our development: thus packing more information into it. I now describe this stage as having shifted to a different level of resolution: 12 years of Jupiter to puberity instead of 2 years Mars. This refers to the evolutional meaning of Mars and Jupiter, where Jupiter is the Parent and Saturn is the grandparent in the Star of David!
jour99 # 10Thus humans have lost self organization in order to establish a higher information level of programing! Then the levels of resolution shift [with the planets] and Mars moves from self organization to expecting finding others to getting our needs met. This is the step of interdependance and into One Mind!
Coercion is part of science and technology in that we must accept the "truth" as in for example "what are numbers".
jour99 # 11The computer learning and other science built on the principle of public domain involves One Mind as if the nurturer - caregiver gives food - thoughts that is already one mind ready and does not need self organization. This is the same principle as supervised / supervision! To "give to" instead of being "asked for" which is a response procedure. Thus we invented authority as the source of nourshment.
http://curriculum.qed.qld.gov.au/lisc/edsw/d-astron.htm these are astronomy zip files
Brian suggested I send a summary / outline of my ideas to the man who knows quanta mechanics.
Notes from Talks with June 1/19/ 99
jour99 # 12The evolution of animal consciousness is fully coherent contained within the DNA structures of millions of years and does not respond to current planet positions in the here-and-now. This old intelligence is responsive to the positions of the planets, but doesn't reorder itself on the basis of realtime positions. This is with strong contrast with human personality which reforms itself at birth within a ONE MIND context. The entire human species is coherently ordered by structures like the Stars as multicoherent sources, but it is whole groups and civilizations that is ordered with ezch individual taking a individual phase angle within that coherence as if it is a single organism with many holographic self organizing positions.
jour99 # 13The development of this personality arose from the ability of humans to be entranced by animal totem consciousness. Humans learned to go into a trance that involved sharing that awareness as if we are seeing thru the animal's eyes, hearing and feeling thru their mind. This is validated by the real experiences of access to information unavailable in "normal" consciousness as in far-seeing when becoming a bird. When this new skill was open up to in humans it required stepping out of the old unity human/monkey consciousness to experience a larger frame / level of resolution. In that frame could take that larger frame and focus it on a subset as if one packs many pixels into a small space so that the human experiences the animal and themselves at the same time. [more?] So when humans developed this skill, it is applied to allow the person to use this larger frame to respond by structuring themselves as "personalities/egos" which was not possible before. jour99 # 14 Each Human has the entire structure present that is selected by the positions of the cosmos. This is as if we have the 4 arms and many legs of some Hindu gods but only allow ourselves to employ a subset empowered by trance. jour99 # 15 This visions human personality/ego as a new power of mind that we do not even know exists. [except NLP].
1/27/99 10:08 AM
Hendrix:In romantic love incompatible people come together to fulfill unmet needs of childhood. They have been given the freedom to chose a partner very recently. Before the 17th century marriages were arranged and duty to the family was the focus. It has not been examined or described anywhere that I know of that this arrangement has many advantages. It avoids the narrowness and runaway feedback of romance / attraction. The only choice or focus of arranged marriage is to learn to be human and love without conditions [unconditionally] of having love returned or of having personal needs fulfilled. Family structures taught respect as a form of love called agape: human to human with sharing One Mind.
jour99 # 16Thus the romantic and individuality [personal freedom] revolution sets new possibilities for romantic love and the spiritual path. This was defined in a beginning way in Asian culture with Bakti Yoga and Tantra: paths to spiritual development. Humans have entered a new path to universal spirituality as in contra distinction to the spiritual path for the few. This is a consequence of the development of science as the new religion and spiritual path. [described elsewhere: link to]. The development or steps of a path or Yoga is now wisdom/knowledge in the public domain available to all. The difficulty is in seeing the development skills that were lost when the extended multigenerational family system disappeared in Western culture. We do not see romantic love as opportunity nor the fact the has been researched by people like Hendrix and Bradshaw that romantic love matches people who are incompatable and incomplete in their life skills which is 75% of all relationships. So Western and now world culture in entering an old path in a new way and with the complete resources of an all encompassing spirituality resulting and still emerging from the scientific method!
1/30/99 1:58 PM
jour99 # 17What can, must be changed, based on recent research of self organization, One Mind, neural networks and holographic mind, to take the next step in human development. Humans advance based on their maps of "reality" and these are basic maps that replace much that emerged from intuition in religion and science, but could not be used because of lack of representational skills [as in the YK 2? problem].
Sculpture: a sphere outline with nets inside [grapefruit mesh bags] surrounded and shaped by wire [cloths hangers] with strips on the outer surface connected to sphere [that represents original mind] by nets of different color. These strips start at different places and have different width boards representing the planets as levels of resolution and fractal generators. These strips represent the houses and the rotated sphere represents the signs / constellations. Thus the strips have many interior connection points. This can also be a graphic. The strips are access / readout points that "read" original mind! This is a continuation / elaboration of the scaffolding metaphor.
02/8/99 5:58 PM
jour99 # 18New proposition: God is the connection with the conception chart as evolution and original mind!?
02/17/99 7:56 AM
jour99 # 19Radio stations are a good metaphor for genetic evolution with each station for each animal and humans able to tune in on all! This is supported by the science that sees animals having one mind: they can pick up / learn behavior at a distance as with the monkies who learned to peal bannanas on a distant island soon after or at the same time that monkies were taught at a different location. This is as if they are tuned to the same station. Humans gave up this aspect of one mind, but re-estblished one mind thru the star of david which has a tuned / untuned aspect as fuzzy logic!
02/18/99 6:15 PM
jour99 # 20The theory of a field of time [Kozerief] where causes must overcome a gap to get to the effect may be a shared mind structure where one individual of a species performs an action, others can find it easier to perform that action. Thus each individual is part of the same genetic structure connection to the cosmos and can self organize or solve a problem that becomes shared. Each one is everyone!
02/22/99 8:43 AMProposition and focus of book: during the evolution of humans of the last 2 million years we understand that we have new skills and abilities not seen in any other life forms. Humans' efforts to understand and map this is now coming to a new point with the advent of new scientific discoveries in the fields of the structure of neural networks, holographic mind, self organization and new understandings of logic and geometry. jour99 # 21 These new understandings will clarify what it is to be human as well as the previous history of attempts to understand ourselves and our universe put forward in religion, philosophy and those intellectual structures represented as spiritual. This book will not cancel the previous endeavours, but clarify and fulfill them.
04/3/1999 10AMThis multiple coherence of over layering is like learning another language or learning to dance: during the beginning stages we still think in the old language or must think of the way to move our feet, but later we can think in the new language or make up steps and directions within the framework of the dance. Here the music becomes the coherent source that tells us where the steps go.
This is very important illustration of how holographic mind works. It also unifies how we moved and developed from totem animal programs loaded in a trance to birth days loading a totem animal projected onto the cosmos to "totem" individuals from "God" whose birthday we shared to scientific truth taking the place of "God" and free national holidays becoming a universal "birthday". So this is the astrology course I will teach.
The Jewish New Year and Chinese are coherent sources with stable points in the cosmos whereas the Fourth of July and Western New year are arbitrary days that are incoherent to the cosmos and invite independent programs to be self organized based on "nothing" except "freedom"!
Dance is now and even stronger model of coherence and holographic mind with over layering of music and movement within the music just as religion sets the music to the dance of life [samsara] or the everyday events. This is a move from the personal chart to a composite shared one mind chart!
4/5/1999 10AMThe conception chart to birth is in time and drum space so the regressed chart is time oriented. This became projected to the progressed birth chart during the Christian Empire that didn't allow the command of the vision - space charts!
The unified cultural birthdays - holidays of Judaism and Chinese give stability from the cosmos whereas fixed days bring chaos!
How to create fractals using music? Measure the regularity and then put irregular events on different scales like a Star of David built with different notes at different sizes depending on the place and length?
05/25/00 2:04 PMMusic of India starts slow because it is getting organized: self organized called improvization which is human and life'
05/25/00 2:04 PMONLY 1 MIND?: solitare is model of evolution: a new pattern is created which has 1 or more solutions JT Chasteen?: there is >32K solutions to Free cell.. all the cards are delt ONLY 1 MIND?: When different numbers become the "Ace" or start number, some number will put things in order: create order ONLY 1 MIND?: thus self organizing universe "finds" the solutions: they are called "reptiles", mammals, insects, plants etc. ONLY 1 MIND?: I mean some different number will put things in order: create order for each deal and unique to each deal.
2:04 PM Thus the different "deals" or patterns can learn procedures for moving closer to coherence. With all "suites" ordered. This perception is "why" humans see the world as getting better or moving to so climax or finish! To death? Humans see or look for a meaning to life because they see this putting in order coherence as an end instead of as coming to understand the structures that make up life and process.
05/25/00 2:04 PM Solitaire procedures that move piles to new locations within the focus of moving to 4 separate coherences [like cross] is not a complete model since the move retains the incoherent pile in all subsequent moves since the pile is the holographic information and the coherent fitting / placement into "order" is "consciousness" or the readout of the information. Thus this is multiple sources of coherence and moving within the coherent phase angles of a coherence that is over - larger than the level of resolution in which the game is focused - played. This is the places - spaces that "hold" or contain the stacks.
This leads me to assert that chaotic universe is mind itself that is viewed or "made conscious" by establishing coherent links which becomes a process that is passed on by over-layered coherences. Like being written on the "book of life".
05/25/00 2:04 PM. Is this an "equal" relationship? Can I do the same things June does, like look to myself and my needs - like sleep or do I continue to sacrifice myself. She doesn't support [as with my concerts] and gives minimal help on book or other since she claims it interfers with her work. Is my wanting to have an everyday relationship "co-dependent"?
05/25/00 2:04 PM. The squares are disconnection as well as struggle and separation, isolation and non-attachment.
05/25/00 2:04 PM.
PoemTrying to Love. Again and again I try to be loving. Over and over I find love and devotion. But is it real when it doesn't seem to last? Am I distorting myself to pay for this seeming love? Can I trust that what I feel is love? It happens over and over: that feeling. The words of connection, the feeling of unity, yet where is continuity hoped for but always shattered. The pieces on the floor picked up again and again. Yet how many pieces are lost this time until none are left. Are these pieces of me I have given and given? Is it me or the pieces she calls a fool: that I don't know what I do? Even when I carry the pieces of my heart hoping not to drop them, I hurt from another unexpected direction, and everything scatters. I don't know if I might talk to her? Will she respond or just blow with reason. So many reasons to leave, But I honor my heart, even when it is in pieces.
PoemBoil love, boil! Only love, any more is steam. How can I love any more? She is the best. She is the finest. She is the deepest. I don't expect the same from her. But I can wish. I have given all, yet it is never enough. So I try harder and harder, But I have already reached boiling, And now it is all up in steam, Nothing left Nowhere to go, So I guess love is not enough, But that is all I had.
Poem:Shrinking Cut down to size: Reductionist human Lost are my human values Characterized by being Buddha. Humility is the new great arrogance. [Buddha is only knowing oneself as completely human, and operating from the center of peace, harmony as the simple and easy.]
Reduced to little or nothing, This being with. A little less here and there And there is no time left. Not being together is the real hard knocks. I learned to duck to early, It came so easy again: Ducking and ducking until - Ant or maybe roach getting out of the way, Finding dark places to hide, And finding there the old habits. Not good enough, Not measuring up, My concerts aren't worth recommending. My writing doesn't work, I can't use a bush trimmer, I can't clean a shower door, Role over and over and over. Voice like a knife to cut me Too size of all men. Reduced to consumer of her beauty, depth and pleasure. If my pleasure is unworthy, Then I am not I AM.
PoemGet on with it. All my energy spent with the past. Lost brain stimulation of relationship. Can I move on without the joy? Can I bring along that joy to other places? All is lost already so what have I got to lose?
05/25/00 2:04 PM.Love Blind Seems things must get dark But they are really too bright. So love blinds in a strong way: Following and finding out who you are, Doing things I would not normally do, But with you, I stay close, I find out what it is I love in you. But where is your interest Your seeking me? The brightness of love is lost I'm not so blinded I begin to see this one way street. Before I didn't care as long as I was with you, But now we are apart. My hunger for love is starved. I know I wanted her, But I'm no longer blind that she doesn't want to be with me. She is not interested in me, But in a product called a book. I do NOT want to be a marketable item, To be bought and then no more contact. But this protest is meaningless in the darker places where vision returns. No one is waiting or looking for me.
05/25/00 2:04 PMMS Word? lost my book plan! $#%^*&(*&^ This is from what is left!:
My book has many starting points because holographic mind has many viewpoints. So I will employ them all as the idea of boxes and looking from different sides / ends. The starting points are the inner boxes, not "why" because "why" is a part of rational mind which is a subset of holographic "fuzzy" systems!
Rational mind is a subset of holographic mind. It builds itself on procedures of gathering / grouping coherent phase angles from higher [or lower] coherent overlays. Thus it can gather the same "concept" from many holographic sources by accessing the coherent source that writes the content: this is in effect self consciousness or consciousness of consciousness.
First:What is holographic mind? What are holographic process and procedures. How does that change how we look at what we called laws and truth!
Second:Multiple sources of coherence > levels of resolution and scales > fractals > iteration and cycles > connection with cosmos and Dyads. [Stars and Cross].
Third:Self organization on levels.
Fourth:connectivity and networks within self organization > One Mind.
Fifth:human development from hunter to agriculture to modern science.
05/25/00 2:04 PMMusic is a model of this self consciousness: beat and time signature is the coherent source and consciousness upon which is written the holo-code of older mind and the key signature that results in melody and harmony is conscious of this other consciousness that is reconstructing the beat and rhythm. The melody is written within the key - coherence - consciousness that is self conscious of the beat and uses it to construct itself! So the melody construction uses parts of the beat and rhythm to construct itself as self reference. Melody uses them independently of the rhythm and beat, sometimes 3 against 2 etc. but still conscious of the time consciousness.
05/25/00 2:04 PM
Book plan:start with levels of resolution and explain that this is a connection with common objects and processes like the clock and computer, cars, maps, graphic maps. Show the use of holographic metaphor to reveal many viewpoints. Show how science or religion fuse and confuse aspects of the same coherence from oppositional views resulting in seeming lack of understanding called inability to visualize the "new physics".
The goal of this book is for the reader to clearly understand what and how consciousness works, what is human nature and many others in a long list of what until this scientific age has seemed inaccessible to representation in human language. These representations will be given within the scientific discoveries about the human brain as having properities best represented by the process of making holograms. Yet I will use common everyday objects and experiences like clocks, music, trees, and maps. [link to list of subjects].
First I will explain why holograms are such a strong connection to easily understand the workings of consciousness, self consciousness, the mind and rational thinking, and then by understanding how a hologram is produced you will see that humans have represented mind and self consciousness in their music, dance, drama and other arts for thousands of years.
What, put in easy to understand language are holographic processes and how do these processes work in applying to understanding the nature of consciousness. Knowing this, how can humans directly use this in their lives. This is not just theoretical science, but also applied to allow easy access to skills that have only been hinted at. [by meditation and human development studies].
159Basic properties of the holographic process that apply to Formation of life:
Structured [constructed] using coherent sources [lasers] as the source that "maps" structures in phase space that is then self referently recorded on the original coherence making a pattern the differs from both the original source or the mapping.
The information contained in the "map pattern" is reconstructed [re-membered or viewed] by reapplying the original coherent source to the recorded pattern.
Since no source of coherence or any other structure outside or different from the original coherence is used to or is part of this process it is wholly self contained, self referent and a self organizing process.
# 160The map is present everywhere: on the physical hologram any piece of film contains the total information [map - object] with the level of resolution of the information proportional to the size of the film fragment.
# 161The different pieces of the film record [map] different viewpoints of the object as if one viewed the scene from any side [and extended to biological process maps: from any place or looking in any direction]
162Holograms can be overlayered by using the same coherent source from different angles of combination or by using coherent sources of different frequencies.
163When multiple coherent sources are used the combination of intensity is at the power, not the sum of the sources.
jour98a # 164How do these properties clarify, map and enhance our understanding of cultural concepts.
Consciousness itself is identical with the reconstruction of a hologram and if all life forms and structures use a phase space in its self structuring, the consciousness of the same coherent structure has direct and immediate access to the information of those life forms.
jour98a # 165Qi [as the full wave form] and Yin/Yang [as 180 degree phases in a phase space] have the same properties as coherent sources.
Holomind: The viewpoint that I inherited is that some kind of holographic type of process is used to create and store memories. The possibility that mind and life processes started and continue as holograms seems to be missed, especially in understanding the structure of every cell of our body as containing a map of the whole human in the DNA. Encoded in the DNA are instructions on how to build and operate the "body" as well as how to respond to diverse situations and repel invaders. Holographic mind is part of these instructions: how to build and operate mind in response to reality of the world after birth. This is a code of processes and operations, not just of memories. Understanding it as holographic from the point of view of retrieval means that "situation" for which the code was created is embedded within the code and when that situation reappears, it reassembles or accesses the original process and operations involved in "dealing" with the situation. [This "appears" to be or resembles stimulus / response and operand conditioning.]
Notes after 4/20The ego can be seen as a process of self consciousness that uses a starting point [like a sign] to arrange coherence in One Mindedness. Like using cards in solitaire other than ace for start.
Does holographic mind save actions and their consequences so they can be undone?
2:04 PM The memory skills programs based on association with learned images is the same process as self consciousness: putting coherent parts of other consciousness in a new coherent order that is more general / global than the "learned / ordinary" material of "everyday - non-rational" consciousness.
2:04 PM Drama is the model of the process of self consciousness: sections or acts that are coherent and have consciousness about something else are assembled in a coherent sequence in the same way rational mind is a putting together of coherent elements in a sequence. This sequence seems to be a causual chain of cause / effect that we accept as rational.
05/25/00 2:04 PMIs Tantra NLP using sex to reprogram: how my feelings with June while making love are so strong and satisfying can be reframed to help write my book?
05/25/00 2:04 PMThere is a good way to understand the Bible's eating the apple from the Ospenski idea of palse personality and mechanical self contrasted with essence as self organization. The tree of the knowledge of good and evil or right / wrong or Data in - Rules out is that the original sin is following the rules in a mechanical way. Thus disobeying "God" as the creator and our essence of self organization. This is a reductionism into the supposed simplicity of rules and laws and obedience. Humans then just judge and forget about fuzzy logic. Does the image of the snake have to do with less complexity? This may be a result of the expansion of self consciousness which looks for coherence and thus rules. Maybe it is the first map of the result of expanded self-consciousness in higher dyads.
05/25/00 2:04 PMHow are the phase angles gathered and arranged in self-consciousness? Is it more arranged by a larger wave or smaller waves interacting with the phase angles of larger cycles? Thus Mars in each cycle picks out one of 6 Jupiter and 1 of 15 Saturn phase angles, and the earth is the awareness[?].
Is the disconnection of Mars related to language: Mars is free of major cycle interaction and can be the first dimension of connection and signal?
The phase angles of coherence of the objects of self consciousness have / are properties, qualities and characteristics like size, weight, color and many others.
Is the school violence part of a change in cultural programming instead of single self organization?
05/25/00 2:04 PMThe meaning of the apple as the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil is how humans fell into the sin of disobedience of our creativity and follower "rules" making good and bad the only necessary judgements: to follow higher authority or higher "power". This helped create "onemindedness" that created civilization, but it is also the reduction of behavior to its simplest terms: reductionism. Then one is able to perform as a perfectionist but never as real inner thought.
Thus the move to the Christian empire was also this same sin and "fall" of man repeated over and over.
Also the Myth of Samson may refer to true strength is being united with one's feminine side symbolized by the long hair. The myth of Noah may refer to a new beginning where the ark of holographic mind contains a map of all species that are saved from the great flood of free "time" given by civilization. [or such]. Saved to be part of human mind since they are no longer hunted? The flood is being overwhelmed by ...?
05/25/00 2:04 PMMake my writings understandable to Opra and others from Chion to start to connect. Also to promote my music concerts and lectures. Start with the importance compared to what already exists.
05/25/00 2:04 PMEnlightenment also refers to fearlessness if fear is a social relationship to shame and fear of loss of "face", since I lost more than face when I lost the old personality: self! Thus I became a pioneer ready to tackle what others call difficult or impossible to understand.
This book is the result and outcome of my 40 year investigation to uncover the scientific basis for understanding the nature of consciousness and what it is to be human. I have endevoured to connect the worlds [old] traditions of what is referred to as spiritual, religious and occult with our new traditions called science. Not in a manner that debunks either tradition but in showing how I see how science has come up with maps and understandings that spiritual leaders thruout the world's history were in their own way revealing.
This journey began when I had a totally unexpected personal experience called by Buddhist traditions "enlightenment". This experience didn't give me any more courage than any others, it just removed the fear of criticism and of restarting in countless ways from the beginning as I re-experienced countless times new enlightments that opened new doors that are just now being explored by science. This enlightenment did not make me smarter or wiser than others, but it cleared away reliance on wisdom that seems so self evident that no one questions it. Such as that music is a form of artistic expression and could never be a better map of mind or consciousness than yet produced by anything in psychology or put together with the help of the many descrete isolated diciplines of science.
05/25/00 2:04 PMKnow your mind like a mother knows her child!
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If thought is like a melody of music that is our personal signature and plays over and over, then it is an object: thought changes like fractal of 1/2 dimension.
05/25/00 2:04 PMJune's deep consciousness shows both the Yang together love and delight as well as the oppositional deep Yin that cancels her other energy with her deep feeling as connection to the suffering of others. This is a sympathy or resonance for their suffering which can lower June's energy of the together Yang.
05/25/00 2:04 PMUnderstanding: is a larger coherent source that connects many cycles of other coherent sources. This is Saturn connecting 5 cycles of Jupiter, or Neptune connecting Uranus.
The frying pan as higher power is a excellent image of self organization and "Creator God": since the food is cooked which means transformed or reframed in the frying pan.
2:04 PM result of Conversation with June: the station of Mars Venus and Mercury creates a situation where the inner personal planets resonate with the same level of resolution of the outer planets, thus creating a sacred situation which is also reframing. Thus the perception of the sacred can come from the "real" movements of the planets or from shifting ones earth to a different viewpoint where the inner planets would be at stations and experiencing the sacred or as oppositional the demonic [evil]. This also refers to the freedom of America as the oppositional [rebellion] of "Satan". So is there a difference of direct station or retrograde station and between Venus approaching earth or earth approaching mars and outer planets?
Is prayer such a shift of the earth to other viewpoints?
05/25/00 2:04 PMIs smoking used to access Yin oppositional thinking?
Is the sacred also a connection to heliocentric real positions and/or conception. I see the transits as connecting with conception. In animals maybe there is no rising sign and no direct connection to a birth chart except thru the Qi chart. Humans evolved the personality as a new level of self consciousness. So the rising chart is part of this new "understanding" for self respect, and 12 total areas of self consciousness that have differing qualities.
05/25/00 2:04 PMResonance: cards have the same sequence in resonant suites as the 4 elements / directions. The suites are resonant by color as 2X2. These 4s and 2s are from the cross as the most global understanding? Thus the cross is for the overmind of the neocortex and the Star of David is the next level of 12 that is resonated. The 12 resonates to 10 as Venus and organizes it. The 5 is a normal runaway feedback balanced by the 10. June has presented a perfect example of runaway feedback where she wants to do more and more in the garden until it is perfect coherence!
I will put my boxes pinned on large cardboard to organize them as cards as see them.
I will place them on a new file doc. I will find the resonance between inner and outer, left and right.
I will put a new doc together for researchers.
05/25/00 2:04 PM"No" for the old brain is like "change direction" which can include "stop". This is the result of the "Huh" that I give the dog peanut! Thus the sound is a signal to reorganize or create a new self organization. The reinforcement of reward can allow the animal [in us also] to repeat the new self organization, which is mistaken for "learning"!
05/25/00 2:04 PMTime signatures could be multiple sources of coherence where the quiet part is cancelation? This can be what drum parts are like and how sounds of animals are made as a code!?
05/25/00 2:04 PMSquares and especially T sq. do not allow the development of resonance and consequently of skills. But is this where wisdom develops?
05/25/00 2:04 PMPoem to June on her birthday:
To my sweet trueheart!
Lighten: Heavy feet trampling on complexity Going this way, then resenting yet another step Taken before I could see Which way became heavy. Thick, thick: deep ahead Body moving up and down But getting only heavier. Lighten up, Up, UP and away to the tree tops of my heart, Where any direction sees the whole spread Down there And my feet become my hands From branch to branch. I'm adding a new dimension When I lighten up! To where my true origin taught me before I could speak Those words of lead Pulling me down to sinking. Free uP my one word at a time. Logically put in a row. Any way I go is up To me!
All my love: David
05/25/00 2:04 PMBlind spots result from the creation of one-mindedness itself. Then the coherent structure of this cultural mind appears to follow predestined or cause effect or "Fate" structures. So humans can free themselves from this structure and create their own mind or stay in "Empty" mind.
Catastrophies happen when there is a sudden change in the parameters of one or more dimensions. This is most often referred to a height. But it can be a change in levels of resolution which seems to fit the structure of signs and rulers and house cusps. Thus the step sizes and phase focus will change suddenly between houses.
The greatest delay of gratification programming of onemindedness is the religious idea that our true reward for a good life is in the afterlife!
05/25/00 2:04 PMThe I Ching is the coherent states of self consciousness: it is a hologram of the crests and troughs that is then used as a code that fits on larger under - support [comprehensions] sets (not sub) extensions! What we stand under is the stars - heavens!
Notes from NCAlphabet as constructed coherent sources that can retrieve holograms called words. The alphabet allows construction by self consciousness as consciousness of consciousness where phase angles are the objects - states that are being "seen". Then they [phase angles] can be used to construct consciousness for each word!
The ocean is the context of religious visions where the surface is the top of the sky, the air is heaven and the land is hell!
05/25/00 2:04 PMLaugh on at my claim to define love, But what do you know of that which I call upon, Within me and within - beyond being human, For this is where it is going: Evolution - change yet the same. It is not or never a "you" I love: It is who you chose to be and become. What is evolution but what we choose? You show me the deep d e e p sea stretching below our mere birth to the beginning. Yet at the same time the stretch upwards to see where and how the most diverse view can fit in such a small space: synthesis leading to synergy.
Yet you like so many others I have known do not know or see yourself yourself: only in others struggle do you see and claim to show yourself the way by showing to other: but isn't that exactly back-seat-driving of life itself. I don't need that! I don't want that: I want to see - know you. Like the infant that moves -shakes both legs and feet: you can't find where you end and I begin. Find one leg at a time if you or I walk together on any path: one foot in front of the other. Don't move your hand where your foot needs to go: you stand still waiting for another who wants to follow those steps you have already walked long ago. But I must find those steps with my own feet: not with your mouth. I see the steps ahead of me leading on the path that I love embodied in you: the path to deep within and long ago before I was born. I love the one in you that trods that path. I see the one in you that deepens the space: and each next step emerges only after I take the last on my own. I'm not here to measure up, but only to know my love. Each next step I see in you I proclaim with great waving of both hands: together as the infant I then become, for each step is a life - lifetime for some. Die and born anew with another, for most others have only [anly] embodied one step, but you, woman of amazement [amazing woman - a maze - of courses going this way and that] have shown so many steps. But when I mirror just that, with excited amazement, you find your own mind insulting: how can that be? Do you not know I am only showing you to me to you? Having seen you, I become ready to take that next step to know within myself what you have already discovered. If you find that common and ordinary in me, it becomes a rejection of what I am seeing for the first time thru you! So if you wish me not to see you, not to mirror you, then it is blank emptiness in front of me, with nowhere to be: and love vanishes.
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