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05/25/00 2:04 PM. Multiple personality may be [my new proposal] the same process as the creation of culture: an overlayered holomind that connects many persons as if they were "external"! Makes sense!
In n.nets Yang can be signal and yin no signal or pulse or firing of neuron. Then from yin to yang is "Go" and from yang to yin is "stop" or inhibit or defense. This is why a dualism emerges because without understanding inverses the best representation in ecological system is opposing forces and opposites as 2 competing teams. This is instead of phase angles, but is in terms of situationality.
2:04 PM. Path may be steps between layers of coherence as well as path or connection or signals between ground states. Tia Ji is calm because is programming neocortex!
2:04 PM. The Yin is also oppositional and the defensive. Thus Yang is the cooperative and associative or amplified. This is increase of the establishment and Yin is going the other way and opening up to the new? Or is this the other way around as the creative being anti-establishment?
05/25/00 2:04 PM. Fields are a result of coherence: magnetic field of earth is lining up of resonance. Thus our personal "field" becomes a hologram code within and as interference in all other fields. We are not coherent but are accessing our "Mind" as interference field patterns.
Is Yang and Yin planet pairs and how they work together? Thus Jupiter is Yang and Saturn is Yin, Earth is Yin and Venus - Mercury is Yang. Uranus is Yang and Neptune is Yin or Right brain as mapping and Uranus is left brain as logic. Then the two are the brow chakra? And the 1,000 pedal is Pluto and beyond?
I can do Tia Ji (Tai-Chi) as chaotic form where each move can follow any other move. Then the teacher - master chooses the moves and the students do not look but follow by resonance. Then they learn to receive in the Tian Tien images of holomind.
Working in the Schools: proposal.I present lectures and workshops for students and teachers as well as solo concerts of classical string quartet music using the computer to generate accompaniments. My work synergizes modern research in the mathematics of neural networks, holographic paridigm of mind and the universe and self organizing systems with the psychological of teaching in regards to how the Mind functions. This material has emerged in science within the last 20 years and has not as yet been made available to mainstream culture. I use music, games using ordinary playing cards and other games like basketball to illustrate and directly model the needs of mind for coherence as rules and understanding that self organization produces diverse responses within identical contexts such as classrooms which requires individual students to know themselves and their response before they can line themselves up with [learn] the material being taught.
Understanding the nature of the human neocortex is very important for learning and life in human culture. Humans are only introduced to the capabilities when they first learn language and are parented. Yet so many problems arise because all parenting is currently, within the last 200 years, depleted from the viewpoint of the resources of the extended multigenerational families system. New information is being introduced by such authors as Carlson and Sheldrake that directly show how to apply skillful the facts that peacefulness, wisdom and grace are built into the structure of what it is to be human.
These are 2 of the many new insights being offered by my work.
05/25/00 2:04 PM
when a participant completes this course, he will be able to do the following:
Attitudinal ObjectivesWhen complete course will feel/perceive/consider etc
Cognitive Objectives:When etc, he will understand the following:
Instructional Objectives:I will use the following methodologies, concepts and exercises in the following was to accomplish the above.
Operational ObjectivesI will use an easle, a blackboard, an overhead projector, (need en electrical outlet) models, pictures, hands on material like etc etc etc. We will go on field trips to etc Concerts!
This is aside. The problems I had with meeting these objectives I had created myself was that participants did not show up for every meeting, they may have wandered in out of curiosity and not been commited to the idea etc. Finally, with the seniors, my objectives changed to just offering what I offer .. which is still the above but accepting that as long as they kept coming, for whatever reason, they were getting something out of it and I was not to say they could or could not. Still, in order to produce a valuable presentation I MUST include material and relationship patterns that line up with the above. Each group, each person, each setting is different and I had to be PREPARED for all eventualities.
2:04 PM. I can approach Basketball players and music stars for support in my outreach program! 2:04 PM. The sides and opposing teams in basketball and football etc. are inverses as the Yin/Yang structures of the hexagrams starting with 24 [Yang on bottom] then to 44 [yin on bottom] as inverses in coherence from crest to trough which are not exactly the same in biological systems as in physical systems of light. OR do we not really know physical systems? 2:04 PM. Hex. 12 is nonattachment as square and 11 is struggle and confrontation?
2:04 PM. Rain and weather are examples of complete information everywhere in holomind. The response is individual or local self organization at each location by plant and other life forms. The product? Holomind is seen here as a procedure resulting from the vector conditions that produces rain or sun. Thus holomind is not data but the result of rules or conditions whose procedure is rain or night - day. Lightening is a procedure of collection that represents "thought" or Vajra which is a situational result of the charge of the falling rain and a response of charge gathered at a specific point on the ground or above.
05/25/00 2:04 PM.
When a participant completes this course, he will be able to do the following: Use their mind more skillfully: know that they will have many solutions and that the human part of solutions can be unplugged from the older brain centers. This means that humans can choose where to plug into action and feeling and warrier. They do not need to be dictated to by old programs. [which are like mythic "Vampires" that live forever and such the "blood" or life stream - flow which is also represented as the blood of Christ!] humans can choose gentleness and peace and reprogramming! Humans will know that their first response is rules and look for a second draft!
Attitudinal ObjectivesWhen complete course will feel/perceive/consider etc the following:
Cognitive Objectives:When etc, he will understand the following:
05/25/00 2:04 PM The procedure to move on and to the next step in religions is to acknowledge their success!
05/25/00 2:04 PM. The Yin/Yang planets as overlays seem to involve another human as focus. Therefore the power of relationships: they are part of self consciousness. The rules and coherence is parenting? Maybe even the constellations and signs end up as part of coherence and consciousness.
I need more "piles" [skandhas?] of projects like the piles of solitaire to have more room to work? Are these piles part of consciousness as multiple holomind locations? Are they phase angles?
05/25/00 2:04 PM. What are my new web pages? I don't feel connected to this, but can go ahead without "feeling". Buddhist, Taoist and Tia Ji. New Model of mind. Music models mind. Police and other needed groups like youth. Astrology and science of resonance.
05/25/00 2:04 PM. Are the charts as interlocking holomind planets in pairs the self organizing part. Then when there is square or other opposition, the person turns outward to read - re-member what is already written in a somewhat codependent way?
Are behaviorist experiments that claim to be objective only failed experiments that did not include enough structure. Thus they are called empirical data when in fact they are incomplete and selective.
So how am I looking at "meaning of the planets in signs" as empirical and not taking into account how much self organization comes into play in what is written on each planet. If the birth chart contains squares then the person feels detached and looks to others for resolution. Also the person is more likely to go to what is already written on the signs because of failure to connect with their own efforts. If the birth chart contains oppositions then the person feels canceled or opposed with their actions and may go to those others who are opposite to their needs or become defensive or look for someone to oppose: a fight. If the birth chart contains trines and conjunctions the person may assert their own self organization and look for allies? Thus in my school I will ask students to look at these possibilities and find self organization as "enlightenment" or the bright light of consciousness!
05/25/00 2:04 PM. With animals that obey [or others: humans?] praise allows self organization. This can be opposite to a structure that one wants to "install".
2:04 PM. Compare the impact of my research and findings on understanding mind and the meaning of religion and spiritual practice to the impact on human culture of the creation and use of electronic technology. Is there a scientific reason why religions are so successful even if their "beliefs" contain no direct science knowledge? Even when they use indirect references to the scientific structure of mind, their structure is such a powerful representation of the neocortex, that the use of their procedures constructs very powerful mental structuring. Even the cultural use of games or sport and music is also successful only because these and other activities implement powerful mind structuring.
2:04 PM. My audience is the Yin coherence upon which I write my and universal holomind. So I need an audience and school! Those are the built in interested people.
05/25/00 2:04 PM. The question of scientific validation of Qi and holographic mind: the universe is built around the principle of coherence as fields, gravity as coherent space-time and other EMF and organization of matter. The fabric of space has distance coherence and continuity. This is a coherence extending to the size of the universe where there is separation between locations and also holomind at every location which is not separation. Non-locality as holomind. So the point is that coherent structures relate to themselves and cannot be "read" by other coherent structures that do not span them: that underspan! Thus scientific instrumentation cannot detect the Qi - coherence of life forms as it is not in the same "dimension" as EMF, yet life forms can detect EMF and matter because our coherence "overspans" [is bigger that] and contains as subsets "matter", as my psychic friends demonstrated.
Segments that are complete.
Creation of coherence.
Creation of holographic code.
05/25/00 2:04 PM. The Yin planet is the receptive coherence or "canvas" upon which the other coherence writes its code. The Yang planet is the active one that formulates and resonates with action and process - procedures. It then writes its code on the Yin. Thus the sign or constellation can hold resonant holomind which is re-membered by the correct planet. This is tradition. The coherent Yin structure as rules can be used as opposition to confine or challenge within separation or struggle. Or the coherence can be used as resonance and identity. 2:04 PM. Conditioning and learning may be written on Yin planet canvases by morphic resonance. We may be set up for this process as learning by phase angles with yin! Thus humans can learn and receive, but it is used in a self organizing Yang way!
Self organization. Each part has different solution.
Consciousness as reconstruction without "thinking or decision" because situation and action is part of total map. Not just one separate action at each point, but all the possibilities of response for each action.
Overlayers of coherent sources to produce many layered maps.
I Ching and chakras and fuzzy logic.
Fractals and connection of parts. The Tia Gi symbol of coherence is for the second level of 2 lines. Other Tia Gis are for other levels and have more "spots" as phase angles and maybe more crests and troughs? So use these multiple spots for illustrations. Show how each level of code became self conscious self organized into the next level of phase and coherence!
Hexagrams are situations that contain code within full code at a different coherent layer or scale! This is pictures as consciousness that access pictures and memory: re-membering!
Path may be steps between layers of coherence as well as path or connection or signals between ground states.
Tia Ji (Tai-Chi) is calm because is programming neocortex!
Lettersto science as Hugh, Acupuncture as Brian and Hugh, and Musicians.
Science. I am a scientist and a Buddha. Yet I am neither because I am "outside" or transcending both. I have earned my living as a professional Symphonic Musician, but never expected that area of my life to impact or contribute to the first two, and now it has with the emergence of the realization that all music is a complete map of mind.
Brian Smith: 212-581-6277 348 W. 56th St. apt. 4B NYC, NY 10019
Hallow: after more than 30 years I welcome your contact.
Over those years after my enlightenment I have not done much with the Bass or as a teacher. I was principal bass with the Lyric Opera and Grant Park Symphony when you met me and had a recital during my year in Milwaukee Symphony  playing Mozart 5th violin concerto. I stayed in Chicago because playing a job anywhere for only 10 weeks a year left maximum time for my private research into the nature of mind and consciousness and how the traditions found in the philosophy, spiritual and artistic practices of all cultures synergized with modern science. Before my enlightenment in 1958 I had no interest in cultural practices except Symphony performance and some science. After that experience I went to a Christian Seminary, but soon found that I could not continue because of their prejudice against my openness to all cultures [especially Buddhist]. So I moved to Chicago's inner City and joined the Catholic Worker, a radical peace movement, where I lived and took care of the homeless on my own income.  Then I returned to the New Orleans Symphony after University positions turned out to be as prejudice against spiritual traditions. [I didn't start to research into Astrology until 1966 when I had an enlightenment into how the cosmos and life systems are connected. Of course I found that research in these systems had stopped 5,000 years ago, so I have restarted from almost scratch. I found that these individual "Astrological charts" refer to humans when they are separate from family and cultural systems in dysfunctional ways. For humans as well as our animal ancestors the "group" is the primary functional unit and the worst thing that could - can happen is expulsion, banishment and becoming a wanderer. Yet in one way that is what happened and is still present for me. I describe myself as a composer who used the staff of traditional spirit and art with the notes of science. So lately I have returned to new development using the bass as my media - canvas. I have found that Western Musical disciplines have similar results in mind development that is attributed to Buddhist and other Asian meditation - yoga traditions.
I am still working on organizing my writings and web pages, but I will include some material that needs editing. I would like to work with you or others to publish my work and teaching materials. Hope rules!
05/25/00 2:04 PM Proposal stuff: Four topical categories are listed below for the present cycle. Proposals should be submitted in one or more of the following three categories: EVIDENCE OF PURPOSE: Investigations at the constructive interface of science and religion which are focused broadly on the subject of teleology, giving evidence of purpose and meaning in relation to cosmological, evolutionary, and human cultural processes. HUMAN CREATIVITY AND UNDERSTANDING: Considerations of the potential and meaning of humanity's accelerating comprehension of reality and expanding creative power with specific concern for moral and spiritual progress. CONCEPTS OF GOD: Theological and philosophical investigation of the relationship between God and World, especially which integrate scientific insights and perspectives. EXPANDING CONCEPTS OF GOD: Consideration of how our understanding of the Divine is expanding and evolving in the modern world, with particular concern for how increasing understanding in science, technology and commerce can be fruitful as a source of inspiration and insight relevant for refining and expanding concepts of God. The idea of "purpose" is contained and emerging from the cosmos as a coherent attractor for the development of holographic mind! Thus the inclusion of the cross and star of David is part of "evolution" or self organization.
Many of the words within this set of guidelines reveal that this area of conscenses reality is not aware of the runaway feedback process! There is no good connection between this "religious" context and the science of neural networks and understanding the nature of the neocortex. 2:04 PM I see that being edited is a cloning: that I can produce work for all groups, but do not need convergence of being edited. In fact this is a destructive process that has held me back!! I don't need anyone or any help! I am Buddha!!
I have been crucified and see the experience as freedom and release after it is done! The Christians totally missed on its meaning! The point is that reality does it's worse to humans and what do we do after the worst thing happens! 05/25/00 2:04 PM. Dream about bassist [Johnathon] trying to fuck me as punishment. Would this mean that some of my parts are inviting problems and maybe feel guilty, thus wanting punishment and rejection?
Being an explorer instead of Buddha is more accessible. Thus I will reach more people: humans. Buddha may have come to be one who is fully connected to morphic resonance and non-judgmental: thus seen to be in other realms of being.
Fvjdaon;i From other places: June: 1-14-99 3 June said that personality was nothing and that it is life as it is lived that people want. So that is the freedom to give in astrology!
1/21/99/8AM jour99 # 22 Mobius twist is related to how the personality - conscious awake mind and sleep interact. They are still orthogonal to the flow of biological time, but may interact with biotime in a dimensional way such as a twist. This may be a twist in our iterator?! Also how does the cosmos act as an iterative process? As fractals it must be so!
What June and I am experiencing, as if we are accessing something that has been and jour99 # 23 is there all our lives that is beyond our "personalities" was likened by me to what has been called the "Christ child". Jesus may have been seeing this, but it got lost in the globalization. So this is a new look at the deep meaning of egolessness! Getting to the deep old wisdom / intelligences beyond 2D language logics.
2/2/99 6AM jour99 # 24 Conception chart is original mind that a scaffolding is created around. Thus a mental type may create a scaffold around Saturn like June.
2/10/99 6AM jour99 # 25 Sleep is a ground state and waking excited states? Is each state contained in consciousness at once? Then is each level orthogonal to the previous? Are the excited states consciousness as movement or light that moves / connects ground states? 2/20/99 6AM jour99 # 26 The Qi and the morphic resonance of the time field seem the same. The gap in the time field may be Yin as part of a coherent structure in holographic mind. This can mean that mind is being written so the original coherence feels like a mountain [Yang] of gap [Yin] before it receives a code? So thought or imagination of an action is a moving over this gap and emotion is a estimate of success / failure of the action. [what? How?] The holographic mind on one level of resolution becomes the coherent source for mind on another level. It is like ? jour99 # 27 The coherence becomes the field of time that flows relative to the speed of light. It is a coherent structure over space. How does it interact with space?
8AM jour99 # 28 So the human neocortex that can generate cosmos if/than holomind patterns to use as coherent sources became frightening: change in a virtual instead of genetic world became so easy that many consequences arose. This became very apparent during and at the height of the mind of agriCulture. So religions invented the Devil to reduce this self organizational play with the new evolving skills and powers of the neocortex. These powers were explored as powers in the pagan witches and trances including totem animals. [are hemoriods the burning in hell?] so how is coherence a field? jour99 # 29 This source of coherence in the cosmos packaged in genetics is not in "real time" but human time is different as consciousness that is continiously coding in the same genetic phase spaces?
Living room: 1/23/99 10AM With June: What does my work do? jour99 # 30 First it creates trust in the spiritual traditions that only modern science can generate. I will propose that science is the great leap forward in spiritual understanding and show how modern research and discoveries re-invigorates those jour99 # 31 Spiritual and religious traditions as a continuation of mans quest to know himself. There is an enhancement, not a canceling / dismissal, but not from the literalist tradition, but from a free and open examination that is given to ALL scientific theories and endeavors. In science there is advance in skillfulness and knowledge which is nurtured by allowing all statements to fall under scrutiny: in other words all truth is fallible and must be stated in such a clear way that anyone who reads it can clearly understand what is being proposed enough to see what would be the opposite or complement of that truth. This is working with language as an invention of humans that changes and develops, and may never be able to fully capture "Truth". jour99 # 32 Given these conditions, trust can grow in the same way that we trust our lights to go on when we flip a switch, or to see what is happening world wide with TV even though we may not know the specifics of electronics or the electrical network. We do not know that the mathematics that backs up this science is based on the use of "pretend numbers and calculations" [called complex math and imaginary numbers] that works even if it is beyond logic and for centuries was considered / dismissed as impossible. jour99 # 33 Secondly, my work opens up new possibilities of development and understanding based on holographic mind. This is like uncoiling material that is hidden from our mind, but took millions of years to develop. ... jour99 # 34 Third, we can come to realize that the many of the structures of culture that limit us were given to us for a reason that no longer exists. We can experience a new freedom based on individual differences, and not on a need to be all alike. With computers we can learn and explore [in school and at home] at our own pace and in our own directions. We come to understand / realize that the basis of life and spirit is self organization and creativity. jour99 # 35 Fourth, we can come to understand a greater unity of being human that is built into our genetics and often referred to spiritual traditions as One Mind or being one with [in the body of Christ or the church ...] [this is the biological opposition to human culture that resulted in the solution of ONE Mind thru Language.]
2/4/99 to register my business if I get one: http://www.register.com
2/5/99 12PM Go to Fisher or others for publishing midi quartetts for Suzuki and general sale.
jour99 # 36 June and me: her female self as constellation matches my male as Taurus trine, and my female as constellation matches her male signs as Star of David!
Runes and other prognostication have reversed which is inverse, NOT Negative but going inward!!
3/16/99 7:24 AM The laptop computer battery is a model of individual separate existence whereas the plugged into the wall electric network is the holomind as everywhere having the same functionality. This shows the coherence of function that is added to by the "information" of whatever is "using". This is source as well as other places of source like gas or gasoline! Each coherence can "source" many "holograms"! So the animal brain is like the car and the human brain is like all the occupants and driver [ego]. Humans can go to any virtual position as if they were loading the virtual DNA code of any animal [other cars or trucks]. This virtual space is of the same cosmic direction as putting the earth in other positions in our chart from other persons earth or teachers / concepts. Rational mind in this case does not see the functionality of holomind but sees only the organizing map and picture called "knowledge / wisdom". A functional space in mathematics is different than a space of coordinates or parameters [location and value worth]. Thus what seems like "mind" is created from virtual coherent positions, not from functional "DNA" coherence and has this freedom that we mistake for consciousness. Consciousness is the re-membering as a function of a hologram restored to action. In plants it is the seasons re-membering different holograms into action. Any functional action is an action of consciousness as a reconstructed hologram mind/body. The I Ching is a mobius strip with the twist as the inverse at the change from yang at the bottom to yin at the bottom etc.
3/24/1999 10AM The I Ching hexigrams may contain many levels: the individual atoms as the attraction of positive to neg. in #11 and the separation into matter in #12 with the #1 and #2 as like charges repelling. Thus this level of holographic mind includes the trigrams and maybe the other dimensions of 4 and 5 lines as information within the structuring in the same way a hologram is recorded on a coherent source. Thus "mind" may use fuzzy phase structures as coherence. Maybe each line is a phase in another "coherent cycle"?
vfe What is a summary?
What are my Cosmos connection ideas.
nhyu From book "Fractals: patterns of chaos": Paradoxically, scroll-like self-organizing waves can lead to death when they propagate in the electrical impulses of the human heart. Heart attacks and epileptic seizures are, scientists think, a form of self-organized chaos which occurs when the heart or the brain suddenly becomes too regular. These body
This waterspout evolved when a patch of warm air began to rise and caused the surrounding air to eddy and self-organize into a vortex column. Barometric, temperature, and wind conditions must be just right for this ordered structure to emerge out of the flux.
systems lose the variability of their normal, healthy background chaos, and this unhealthy, overly regular state pushes some systems to a critical level, spawning fast periodic waves that pound away at the tissues, causing damage. The "knocking'' in your car engine may be another example of an unwanted self-organized oscillation spawned by chaos.
A chaotic system constantly mixes things up, creating new directions in which the system can go. These moments of possibility are called bifurcation points by chaologists. At some bifurcation points just the right concentration of a chemical or flux of heat or timing of an electrical impulse can amplify through the system's feedback. The phases or frequencies of the feedback become locked together and a structure emerges.
Once formed, the self-organized structure stays "alive" by drawing nourishment from the surrounding flux and disorder. This is what happens when tornados and other cyclonic winds form out of turbulence. To keep themselves going, they feed off the thunderstorms, moisture, steep temperature and pressure gradients, and turbulence that gave them birth.
Especially long-lasting forms of phase-locked feedback are called solitons. Jupiter's eye first detected in 1644 and apparently enlarged over the next 150 years--is actually a swirling vortex bigger in size than Earth. It was formed out of turbulence, scientists think, at a bifurcation point. There the planet's rotation combined with northerly and southerly layers of high-velocity turbulence to trap a vortex and stabilize it like a piece of dough rolled between the palms of a baker's hands.
The seismic chaos of an earthquake can cause the ocean to phase lock into a "tsunami" or tidal wave a few inches high at the surface but hundreds of meters deep and able to travel intact for many thousands of miles, until it causes havoc by splashing over the continental shelf. Hidden from view, other ocean soliton waves are known to roll vast distances in the boundary between deep cold water and warm water close to the surface.
Technicians have created solitons of light by sending a pulse at just the right frequency down an optical fiber. Unlike other light pulses, the light soliton doesn't disperse over long distances.
As a phenomenon, the soliton was first studied by Scottish engineer John Scott Russell, who came upon a strange wave moving unchanged along a canal and followed it on horseback for several miles. Scientists now know that soliton waves are created when a wave's natural tendency to disperse is exactly compensated for by some critical factor (for instance, the intensity of the light pulse and the size of the optic fiber). Russell's canal soliton kept going because the canal walls and depth created just the right conditions to cause the many wavelets in a turbulent--otherwise dispersing wave to phase lock. The wave's inherent tendency to disperse was compensated for by the canal walls, which guided the spreading wave back together.
Solutions, like other self-organized structures, breed and thrive in the dynamic world that flourishes on the sharp and delicate edge of dissolution.
You meet a friend you haven't seen in a while. The friend looks different. You say, "Wow, you lost weight," or "You look tired." But you're wrong. You learn to your embarrassment that it's because she has a new hairstyle or he has grown a mustache. Of course. How on earth could you have missed it? One reason is feedback.
You viewed your friend as a whole, a gestalt, so that every part of your visual image inextricably affected every other part. Change one part and the whole seemed changed. Nonlinear systems including many dynamical systems and all chaotic systems--are extremely sensitive to small changes, because the feedback among their inextricable "parts" can amplify small changes into large results. A mustache or a new hairstyle isn't much of a change, but the effect on the whole may be impressive.
Scientists usually discriminate between two general, quite different, types of feedback. "Negative feedback" is the type that keeps things in check: The valve on Thomas Watt's steam engine created a negative feedback loop because it opened when the engine was running fast in order to release steam so the machinery wouldn't explode but closed to keep the pressure up when the engine started to slow down. "Positive feedback," which despite its name is not always a good thing, actually pushes systems to explode or spiral out of control. Pointing a TV camera at its own monitor gives the visual equivalent of the positive feedback loop screech that comes from a microphone placed too near its speaker. The frozen frames of the video chaos allow us to notice that there is a structuremaking dimension to this positive feedback: This is a place where new forms come into being.
Feedback is everywhere in nature, weaving order out of disorder and holding order tenuously in place. Feedback is the instrument of new life and new havoc from the positive feedback that escalates an arms race between countries, scrambles computer networks, and sends asteroids flying out of certain orbits, to the negative feedback of pike populations that increase when the trout in a lake get too numerous and fall back when the trout become too scarce.
Richard Dawkins, professor of zoology at Oxford University and author of The Selfish Gene and The Blind Watchmaker, argues that evolution itself is a grand feedback performance. He notes, for example, that a mutation which improves the design of a predator changes the pressures on its prey so that the prey in turn evolve better defenses in order to avoid these better-adapted predators. As the prey get more wily, the predators once again selectively undergo a design change. Here positive feedback kicks evolution forward. Meanwhile, negative feedback in evolution keeps mutation changes from spiraling out of control the checking power of many negative feedback loops simply wipes out most mutations and keeps the design of species stable for long periods of time.
Environmental scientists are now debating the role of feedback in the fate of our global climate. On one side are those who believe that the countless loops of negative feedback will work to keep the atmospheric temperature stable no matter how much we perturb it by adding carbon dioxide. On the other side are those who point out that spiraling positive feedback somewhere in the system might accelerate even a relatively small perturbation by humans into environmental catastrophe. Because the planet's interlocked positive and negative feedback loops make the global system dynamic--and fundamentally chaotic--it is impossible to predict which fate will befall us.
One of the most important discoveries of chaology has been that positive feedback can cause complex, even chaotic behavior concealed inside orderly systems to unfold, and that negative feedback can grow inside an otherwise chaotic system, suddenly organizing it and making it stable. For example, the chaotic interaction of birds lifting off from the tops of trees exhibits positive feedback. The birds' flight patterns are wild and unorganized as they try to avoid crashing into each other in the first moments of flight. As a result, negative feedback loops are created and suddenly the birds' flight patterns become highly organized. One zoologist has even been able to mimic on his computer the behavior of birds coming into roost by setting up a program with a few simple rules involving feedback such as: birds are attracted to each other but become repelled if they get too close.
Chaologists can mathematically mimic many complex dynamical processes in nature using equations that have terms feeding back from one side of the formula to the other as the equation is run repeatedly, or iterated, on a computer. Iterative equations are now regularly used by chaologists to describe such dynamical processes as the turbulent flow of interstellar gases, static in electrical systems, and the action of reagents in chemical reactions. By using the
iterative features of "recursive programing," Dawkins has even created a "biomorph" program that simulates evolution. The program iterates genes and occasionally adds copying errors which are blown up by the feedback into new generations of computer creatures, some of which resemble the trilobites that swam in the oceans of the Cambrian era 570 million years ago.
Using iterations of purely mathematical functions, Cliff Pickover of IBM created a lab dish of biomorphs.
Pickover's biomorphs show a self-similarity at different scales (small portions of the organism are similar to larger portions of the organism) and illustrate a significant feature of feedback in dynamical systems. Real systems, such as human beings and mountain ranges, also show self-similarity at different scales. The branching of our lungs, nerves, and circulatory systems is evidence that our very bodies are a product of feedback.
The traditional medical model of the human body portrays it as an organic machine. Clocklike rhythms such as the beat of the heart tick away until the machinery wears out. Like an understructure of ball joints and hinges, parts of the skeleton can be repaired, even replaced. The mechanical model shows the nervous system as a telephone exchange or, in more recent hightech metaphors, a "wetware" computer circuit board.
This image of the body sharply contrasts with the one being crafted by a new generation of scientists who have begun portraying our physiology as a holistic activity laced with fractals and chaos. Fractal geometry describes structures full of spaces and surfaces that wrinkle, branch, and fold into self-similar detail at many scales. These kinds of structures and surfaces are found everywhere in our bodies. Consider the classical picture drawn by Andreas Vesalius, the father of modern anatomy:
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To June over new year: Hi, June I'm glad to hear from you since I wasn't sure you could use the email there, or something fzzy like that. I started some writting and may have arrived at the correct time to get it together. Seems like I'm getting clearity within and good vibes from all and especially you! It is nice to have the full freedom to go in any direction. The white stuff is up to my calves and drifts to my waist and I shoveled 6 times already today and lots more tommorrow Thanks to the good health of exercise! So I think you can sign on to AOL and get your mail from where you are: call 1-888-265-8006 for help in signing on by the internet! I have a double date for us with my special friend and her Man friend who is a leading sergon [sic] and interested in similar stuff especially from Ospenskii, which I read back in 1960. I am giving a minni concert to an old friend and her 4 yr. old daughter Tues if things are OK with the rodes. They both started the violin this year! Hope to hear from you and will write tommorrow when I am awake as am a little tired now1 Thank your daughter for allowing us to talk! Hold tight to that wind! David Hi June, No concert today and my playing Tues is private fro my friend and her daughter. This is where I have been going:
The efforts of humans to understand themselves are producing new results. Since soon after my enlightenment when I decided that the major task for me in this age was to unite "science - math" with spiritual and religious traditions, much new material as emerged in science and math which allows me to make maps of the spiritual traditions of mankind that are complete in the scientific sense. It also came as a complete surprise to me to be able to extend my task to include a complete scientific definition of the human species that includes the spiritual traditions. This is the definition that humans do occupy a single virtual skull as what was referred to as ONE MIND in Buddhism and such ideas as the body of Christ in Christianity. This sharing of nearly identical maps of mind in fractal structures is enabled by the evolution of language and maps. Defining being human in this way was a result of my readings in the mathematics of neural networks and finding that human culture is biologically impossible because any kind of external supervision including supervised teaching is biologically impossible in self organizing neural networks, which are the only kind possible in bio-systems.
Now the short definition of my task is that I am a composer whose staff is all the spiritual traditions and whose notes are science. Although science has steered clear of involvement with spirit and religion - philosophy, I can point to the scientific method as the next great leap forward in the evolution of spiritual discovery. Especially in the requirement of presenting any theory or truth - law or new discovery to the public domain where it can and will be tested by anyone. This requires putting the new ideas into a common language accessible to everyone without years of study with a teacher - master - guru. This language is usually mathematics, which until recently was very poor as a resource for this task. But with the development of general systems theories, holographic mind - universe, fractals, self organization, chaos theories, catastrophe theories, neural networks and fuzzy systems we have finally caught up with spiritual traditions. [Buddhist teachers defined fuzzy logic 1,000 years ago]. So I see my task as being able to present my ideas in such a way that all can understand immediately or I must find out what new language is needed or ask my access to the millions of years old intelligences, that was awakened - emerged as a result of my enlightenment, for focus. I stopped being a guru in 1970 because I didn't like that focus and now have many stronger tools such as trust, openness, sharing and nurturing that have been made available by the work of many others in modern psychology. Enlightenment is not an end but an openness and synergy which includes complementarity and contradiction. The days of the guru, master or god are done!!! We can now include all that religious ideas were pointing to and more: religion is a prototype and first attempts and can be valued as such. There is no need to abandon any of the spiritual quests until they can be reframed with complete clarity.
I am giving a short outline and summary of my ideas: A complete reworking of Astrology giving charts for the reptilian, mid and human brains including charts that differentiate the nurturing [feminine] and thinking [masculine] as well as the male and female personas. This includes the soul and spirit as well as the human brain. From this work the derivation and development - origin of grammar and language is biologically defined. I show how these became sources of coherence and integrate with the chakras and the I Ching as the phase spaces of holographic universe and mind. This redefines the number system from the holographic universe and defines what numbers including all fuzzy numbers are as phase states. These are being slowly recognized by the development of quantum mechanics and such ideas as curved space time. I clarify holographic mind by using and defining music and other arts as sculptures of holographic mind: time signatures and key signatures are coherent sources and the notes appear in phase codes in all human cultures! So this "model of mind" called music appeared in all cultures and all places at all times of human evolution: isn't that enough objectivity to qualify as "evidence"?
My definition of consciousness as a holographic process follows the physical holographic process quite well: a coherent source [consciousness] is the "canvas" upon which the phase space code [DNA and other levels] is written and the same coherent source reconstructs the original information when applied to the "canvas" that has been captured on the film. The analogy of the film transfers to the molecular biology and other larger structures moving up a "ladder" of overlapping coherences from organs to families to groups and cultures. Each ladder rung has a different pattern of coherence that have been recognized for centuries as the 5 pointed star, star of David, the Cross and many more in Asian cultures. Thus if the biosphere is coded in a phase spaces created by consciousness/coherence then consciousness reconstructs it as an instant whole without any "construction" or "mentation" or mental process. This has been reported over and over in "spiritual" writings. Mental process actually is a part of instant consciousness of the human brain which presents many views of holographic mind from multiple levels of resolution. Levels of resolution is another breakthru idea in understanding mind because each different coherent source has a different level of resolution. These levels first appeared as the "gods" for which the planets were named!!!! [yet another nobel prize that I will never get: no loss since I have already achieved the highest]
The evolution of culture defined, especially in the Roman civilization who ignored the oppositional half of consciousness by reducing the Star of David source of coherence into the trinity, and the other half reemerging with science as a split in consciousness that continues to create mental illness in Science based culture.
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What follows is what is recently emerging focused on the meaning of evolution. [see elsewhere for my treatment of the Geneses account as relating to the structure of holographic mind: In the beginning ... separated the day from the night to make coherence]
Science and religion is about Us, but is structured and focused on what is labeled "The Universe" or "God - Spiritual" or "Truth - scientific Laws". I see the roots of our experience of understanding as very ancient: millions of years back to our roots as tree - forest dwellers. In that environment proto humans had their logics and intelligence built in over millions of years of evolution. These logics of action - process and behavior had to deal with a 3D environment of the tree tops, and are still "built into" modern man, but not directly accessible by our language consciousness of our newly developed human brain. People who allow these and other older logics to emerge into consciousness have been labeled "mystics" or religious figures by our scientific culture, but this intuitive thinking has played a major part in the development of modern science. The dream of Crick that resulted in understanding the shape of DNA is the most well known.
The difficulty in accessing our human mind comes from those successes in human evolution which resulted in our skills at controlling our environment. This is a beautiful contradiction: the very development which allows humans to think and produce what we call "knowledge of ourselves and the universe" are the very skills that restrict our access to our older [by millions of years] intelligences. Let me review the process I am referring to. When proto humans emerged from the forests onto the plain, we had to compete and contend with larger, faster and stronger animals, yet we developed cooperative hunting societies by using our 3D logics as hierarchical trees tops whose branches connected humans and allowed them to develop procedures and maps - models of our environment. A model of this mapping process can be made using the analogy of many spiders on the top of tree that spin webs that connect to the leaves and branches below them. Each spider also connects to the webs of the other spiders at their same level. This allows the information contained in the specific connections to the leaves to be reflected everywhere among the all the spiders. Then the off-springs of each spider can migrate to other trees and spin almost identical webs given the fact that each tree in unique! This is a model of language in holographic mind where the spiders are the tokens we label "words" and the connections with the lower "tree" is the meanings and organizational structure is provided by the lateral "webs" or networks.
This development in the human species allowed humans to avoid the biological impossibility of external supervision by anything or anyone exterior to neural networks. This results from the recently developed mathematical "fact" that the only structural type of neural networks that can function in any biological system must be self organizing. So whatever responses to any event or anyone in the exterior environment is totally determined by structures and programs already present within the neural network and to self organizing changes made only within those networks. Within these limits those procedures necessary to the formation of human culture like understanding "NO" or instructions, commands and "knowledge" or passing on traditions or supervised teaching are biologically impossible!
So language and maps provide a way around this limit by allowing humans to create a virtual One Mind that everyone can share as if we are all within a single virtual skull. This solution has been pointed to for centuries by the creation of Cathedrals, Mosques, Temples, Churches and government buildings built in the shape of a large skull!
More on this new definition of language and human nature later, but now back to the emerging procedural use of language. As humans learned to simulate control and supervision of others as if they are one unified individual, humans developed control and supervision of other species called domestication both in plants and animals. This of course opened a whole new map of being human that was organized around a central rational principle governed - driven by the Sun and seasons and the need for discipline in the emerging agricultural societies. The idea of discipline and control needed to be invented because the self organizing neural networks were [ARE] still inventing new way to do tasks as hunters and in competitive ways. Competition is built into the biology of holographic neural networks where the same input [problem] appears laterally at many locations in a network where each location operates with self organization which results in many solutions which compete with each other, and the winners laterally totally inhibit [or turn off] the losers. In most common situations requiring decisive action this is totally necessary, called being of one mind or single intention, or an individual would be trying to go in many directions at the same time.
This natural behavior of neural networks is projected into the ONE MIND called culture where it can result in so called "evils" as cultural ethnic cleansing to totalitarian governments. But this also results in the so-called "goods" of singular reductivistic provable scientific truth and theory.
That leaves out those areas which are chaotic and self organizing: where each instance is individual.
The search for self understanding is thus blocked by the very success that makes being human in a shared human culture possible: we look for cause and effect and the laws or "gODs" that govern.
Thus humans hope for more control by discovering the laws of the universe: but what if the laws that govern life and self organization are just that: organized by "choosing" from or trying an infinite number of possibilities.
Thus survival of the fittest is not a "Law of evolution" but a reflection of the behavior of lateral inhibition in neural networks.
Yet it is those procedures that allow organization to take place which will survive and the holographic paradigm is just such a way to organize. This resulted in the holographic phase space code of the DNA and the over-layered linked phase codes resulting from using the cosmos as sources of coherence!
So where do we look for self understanding? In places that can describe natural process, structure and connection.
Here are some writings by John Briggs in his book "Fractals: patterns of chaos". "Chaos and fractals are nonlinear phenomena, so you are hereby invited to avoid reading this book linearly. Try weaving your own fractal path through the text. Perhaps you started to do that when you first picked the book up. Jumping around might seem a little chaotic, but that's the pattern under discussion here." This is an unexpected example of our natural human organization: self organization or make it up as you go along! So more later, David
Hi June, So that writing was more confusing than I thought. will or need a graphic. This becomes confusing for me also since it is material emerging from neo-natal mind that I call ancient intellect of evolution. So material pops out like yesterday in response to a need, and then today or last nite I wonder what the further implications are of what I wrote. This definitaly bridges the gap between one Mind to language to One mind. I remember that one mind is so real that it is ignored in favor od self determination - self organizing mind tryong to emerg as individuals out of an assumed "lower" biology. I recently heard some religious person call animal behavior "evil" along with the awful rejection of the reptilian brain in the west: the devil appeared as a serpent. In Asian societies they revier the dragon at New Year and also the snake as intelligence. No wonder they are more sucessful except at agression! Catch you Later, David
Good morning June, Thank you for your daily talk. I hope you can try the talk freely program on web tv? I don't know what that system is like. The One Mind is built into our recent biology and is as much taken for granted as vision, hearing, feet etc. and is involved in the biological impulse to do language: not to learn it as some assume since learning from other is impossible until language has emerged. As you know language emerges even in the deaf or those children without human contact as "raised by wolfs". So all that mystical stuff is just that: first glimpses of being human after the fact of self organizing universe which produces "Ego" and self. Humans spend most of their life moving away from being human toward self organization or as it is excused" toward gOD. [which is so musc more primary urge but when I want to perform Mozart, so very anoying. yet nothing I can say or do will cancel god as self organization and creativity] Later, David
Hi June, I expected you would be focused on your family, so good to hear from you. I found out that using the "speak freely" program entailes using the menue called "phone book" each time to look up anyone and that the IP addres I sent is good one time since my internet provider assigne a different address each time I sign on. So you can find me by searching using my e-mail address which is "firstname.lastname@example.org". You need to use the same procedure to talk to Astralia daughter or ND etc. Yes, I can come across "strange" as material is filtered thru my moods, but not so much an e-mail problem: just the view of the day and hour in holographic mind that has so many views. Yes the hardwired language as One Mind is my idea so you never heard it before. I support this from neural net math. Yes, human potential is excellent way of viewing what I said and what I said does need much clairification. I should pinch myself to remind me that I am dialoguing with another human and not just talking to myself in a kind of "sleep". We consider ourselves human because in the one mind we all use the same process of loading pre-human templates as "ego" and presonality, but as you said more on this later. I need more practice in clarity, so thank you for your encouragement by enquiry. I see "ego" as our movement away from "one mind" to differentiation as unique and as other dynamics like "status". The word "god" needs modern clarification since it is such a large "mansion" for ideas, and can at once mean "one mind" and "self organization" as creativity, plus much more. Anyway, I await your return Safe journey David
Hi again, Yes, we humans do not need to do anything to be of and in or part of "One Mind" so developing skills and awareness is where it is at for me, and that now falls under sharing and communication and openness. "God is Love" was one pre-direction of the ability to share, but that is confusing as it is within the context of the mammal family love of the mid-brain. Anyway you are right, in the incompleteness inherent in e-mail, so more later. David
Hi, June You are up earily if I believe the 6AM time on the email. I see the word "love" -as map including but not exclusive to the mid-brain. It is material loaded from that area and then transformed, but still attached to midbrain intensity such as maternal exclusiveness. Isn't the "school" for all a step in the right direction away from exclusiveness into One Mind. So is TV and other media. [whether we like it or not] That sharing of Western Mind helped the collapse of the Soviet Union, which was also a step in Direction of One Mind. But of course they left out the functionality of consciousness as self organizing competition. Good definition comes from the first book I will present at my Jan 27 book club lecture: TORI = Trust Openness Realization & Interdependance. So your second letter just arrived! OK! Back to LOVE! This is a new application in my thinking as a fleshing out of the new idea about human nature that we load templates from the mid-brain which are not very complete [was going to use the word "good"] maps of the evolving human species. [we are still evolving] As you may know it is impossible for a map making program to map itself, so self references get projected and everything is confused and distorted by reference to "good" referring to the reshaping of the neocortex and "bad" as the "contamination" by the midbrain. Is that why-how we keep pets? to symbolize the gift of the midbrain yet realize how limited it is? [new thought] I am trying to phrase a kind of act of fulfilling a need [loading bidbrain templates] with obsolite stuff and then "hating" the result: start life with a disrespected "Ego". Maybe out pets remind us of how much we are like them: have not left their world. So with this first writings to be added to, I will send this and then read you next mesage. Best David
After shovelling: So what is dicipline from my perspective: Earily when humans discovered they could write programs for their brain at the height of Agri Culture?, and invented "religion", they rightly restricted the program building to those who devoted themselves full time: monks etc. Now is emerging the thing they feared: the word has gotten out to the mid-brain that anyone can program: this results from the shared maps of onemind that just hearing the words evokes. The young need not become computer programers or even computer literate, but just exposure to the idea that humans do it makes it available to them. The problem is that they use even pre windows and pre dos when the code was "Punched in" from the front pannel and they do not understand "debugging". As a "real" programer, I spend 10 minuets writing some code and 3 days getting it to work: totally normal. Just seeing that a former roommate who had sat around all day because he was a Jazz musician, started learning computers and became at teacher - to a database programer for largest fashon house in NY: just from seeing me run in and say: "Wow I just found that error"! Some of the cultural programs that emerged from the same place long age are very restrictive even though they presented the next step in a "debug", but we can talk about that in person. Another reflection: Islam introduced an advanced form of onemind that has still not been absorbed world wide: Everyone going into a Mosque wears white to show the taking off of class and family differences. [I'm letting the thoughts happen] I wanted to include some of by predasessors's words on dicipline: from the 7th century China:
YORA DAISHI'S "SONG OF ENLIGHTENMENT"l
I. Knowest thou that leisurely philosopher who has gone beyond learning and is not exerting himself in anything? He neither endeavours to avoid idle thoughts nor seeks after the Truth ; ~For he knows that] ignorance in reality is the Buddhanature, [And that] this empty visionary body is no less than the Dharma-body.
3. When Reality is attained, it is seen to be without an ego-substance and devoid of all forms of objectivity, And thereby all the karma which leads us to the lowest hell is instantly wiped out
5. Here one sees neither sin nor bliss, neither loss nor gain ; In the midst ofthe Eternally Serene no idle questionings are invited ; The dust [of ignorance] has been since of old accumulating on the mirror never polished, Now is the time once for all to see the clearing positively done.
23. When you are awakened, all is understood, no strivicgs are required ; Things of the samskrita' [world of cause and effect] are not of this nature ; Charity practised with the idea of form (rupa) may result in a heavenly birth, But it is like shooting an arrow against the sky, When the force is exhausted the arrow falls on the ground. Similarly, [when the heavenly reward comes to an end], the life that follows is sure to be one of fortune. Is it not far better then to be with Reality which is asamskrita and above all strivings, And whereby one instantly enters the stage of Tathagatahood?
26. He neither seeks the true nor severs himself from the defiled, He clearly perceives that dualities are empty and have no reality, That to have no reality means not to be one-sided, neither empty nor not-empty, For this is the genuine form of Tathagatahood.
27. The Mind like a mirror is brightly illuminating and knows no obstructions, It penetrates the vast universe to its minutest crevices ; All its contents, multitudinous in form, are reflected in the Mind, Which, shining like a perfect gem, has no surface, nor the inside.
28. Emptiness negatively defined denies a world of causality, All is then in utter confusion, with no orderliness in it, which surely invites evils all around ; The same holds true when beings are clung to at the expense of Emptiness, For it is like throwing oneself into a flame, in order to avoid being drowned in the water. When one attempts to take hold of the true by abandoning the false, This is discrimination and there are artificialities and falsehoods ; When the Yogin, not understanding [what the Mind is], is given up to mere discipline, He is apt, indeed, to take an enemy for his own child.
34. [This inner Light] is beyond both praise and abuse, Like unto space it knows no boundaries ; Yet it is right here with us ever retaining its serenity and fulness ; It is only when you seek it that you lose it. You cannot take hold of it, nor can you get rid of it ; While you can do neither, it goes on its own way ; You remain silent and it speaks ; you speak and it is silent ; ' The great gate of charity is wide open with no obstructions whatever before it.
Much more was written in this style. Flow on, Dave
Good morning June, I was looking for your messages [hoping] but my mail server disconnected without making a sound. But I got your psychic message that you wrote something. I get psychic messages the day a corp puts the letter in the mail like "when will they respond". I remember my first clearcut psychic contact was when I was a student at Tanglewood [BSO summer home I'm sure you know]. I heard Lenny Bernstein think to the Basses" "you got a hard passage comming up" [while he was conducting the student orcheatra and I had my head burried in the music. I have had conductors talk to me privatily to strongly request me to watch them because I was such a strong player and could bring many around me along] [Just caught the cable of my keyboard on my shoe and pulled it off the table! Boy they make them sturdy] I remember my first "Samadi" [strong trance meditation] when I was practicing and could play something new once a litle slow and "have it". All this before my enlightenment, including my first "separation realization" when I was 20 and in the New Orleans Symphony walking down the street and all of a sudden realizing that no one I presently knew gave a damm about me.
Yes I have full copies of our mail and have already planned to forward to AOL. Thanks for your encouragement. I expect my work to be clearer than all the old masters, Not because I am more enlightened: I would expect they could and would have done the same NOW with the beautiful new maps and tools science has provided. I think they would have done well. Sending now because you maybe are still there? Dave
Holographic mind: each part contains all the other parts or enfolds into / from them. This is like the way the orchestra plays the same music but each plays a different part, except the string sections. In this case the strings represent cloned cultural mind or shared one mind and the winds the color / brightness of the midbrain and the percussion represent the reptilian brain and the conductor the ego or "god"!
Music as symphonies are themselves a model of this enfolding holographic process! This enfolding holographic mind is illustrated by the physicist David Bohm who put a large drop of black ink in a cylinder of glycerin and after rotating the cylinder the ink trailed off into threads until it filled the entire cylinder and made the glycerin a little darker. When he reversed the rotation, low-and-behold the drop of ink reformed itself: that is his illustration of how the holographic mind which is everywhere but nowhere emerges into consciousness and "opens up". This is the same structure by which symphonies like Mozart and Beethoven reveal themselves. It is as if the music or poetry is unwinding from some deep source that is opening up in the mind of the composer or poet or religious person or someone like Edger Cacye.
The music like a holographic mind is completely present everywhere in the orchestra, but like the organs is operated on differently. The metaphor of the ink drop can be replaced by rolled up tape measures where the steel ones are the reptilian / percussion / beat or time signature and the cloth tapes are the melodies / key signatures and other instruments. The winds as the mid-brain is self organizing like the organs and the strings as neocortex is shared as if many share one holographic functional operator. This allows supervision to take place as the conductor!
2nd: what are fractals? They are iterations of smaller and smaller parts that are self organized! Thus each new restart adds new material to some coherent source that is the fractal as a coherent structure like the star of David. Self organization is at the 1/2 dimension: some but not all is changed. Eternity is the human thought structure free of time and levels of resolution. Then actions can be restructured in a fractal space because the "thought" is an iteration about some part within the scale or at a finer level of resolution! It can also be at a larger scale as a map which would be - is Venus / Mercury as more inclusive and tying things together. If the 5 energies of venus connect the organs and show connections called emotions as maps of how things connect, then would the chakras relate to the Stars of 6? Or Mars? Maybe the Mercury as kidney and will power / sex relates to sensation. Saturn relates to finer maps of worry / thinking?
Lecture includes my orthogonal sine wave for consciousness: able to make maps and fractal iterations as a source of coherence. maybe different levels of resolution have different orthogonal generators? What are these things besides wake and sleep? Back and forth? Spend and recover? Disassemble and reassemble?
jdfqa Introduction of topics:
Maps and impossibility of knowing what cannot be spanned. Self organization and neural networks and impossibility of supervision! Holographic Mind. Fractals and moments of consciousness. Neocortex and fractal tokens shared in one mind!
Maps and impossibility of knowing what cannot be spanned.
Following orders and discipline are attempts to "map or know" our sources of coherence! This includes laws, morality theories etc.. So we "humans" want to create or self organize our environment since our mind "includes" more than single individuals in the one shared mind! This started after trying to project a rationality of a single central organizing principle introduced by the needs of agriculture. Map of age: flexibility - adaptability is the sign of intelligence and evolution. Old has come to represent less flexibility. Yet the universe and human culture is now expanding its procedures and knowledge and is becoming more developed - advanced - complex in the information age. Thus those born near or before the beginning of the information age are younger and less developed in the sense that their maps of the new culture are smaller: having fewer resources, choices and flexibility. Thus the greater years of life age is this new culture are actually like infants because they came to maturity in the infancy of our new information culture. Self organization and neural networks and impossibility of supervision!
Holographic Mind. After the development of mind using holographic coding, mind discovered how alter holographic code. These alterations are called thought and thinking. Then mind could use a previous hologram that is altered to resemble coherence [with good/bad separated] and test reality for fits and how to alter or supervise the environment to fit the inner coherence which was at first called [labeled] spiritual and later scientific!
With the cosmos as coherent sources the Sun is like a placeholder for different sources so that one source can be a phase marker embedded in other sources: especially in the recognized patterns as Star of David!
Fractals and moments of consciousness.
Holographic mind becomes self organizing by creating and organizing its own code as interference patterns like the I Ching over coherent sources already present. This may be the DNA? Thus a code is created by iteration within a phase structure / space by inclusion/exclusion. That is, an iteration is not performed at each phase angle, but the code is read by which phases and sub-phases are selected. Thus a Star of David allows 12 phase angles to be written on and 12 X 4 for the next level of resolution. Then DNA would have 4 types of iteration at each site, as 2 and 2 inverted! Like yin/yang and yang/yin? So this self organizing code is not of something else, but may use an already existing hologram to draw a code at a larger level of resolution or may create a hologram at a smaller - embedded scale/level of resolution using some other hologram's code as a coherent source. This is illustrated by holograms embedded on the same film at different frequencies or at different angles. Also more than one coherent source can be used to create interference patterns without an "object" beam which is what multiple sources do resulting in "Star of David" or 5 pointed star or cross. The cross is the most likely candidate for DNA.
Neocortex and fractal tokens shared in one mind!
Summary: new maps of being human and their implications and importance! Preview of next lectures.
Uriew `Personal responses and feelings 9/26/98 8:06 AM I feel angry and helpless at the lack of reply or connection from others or from the net. I wanted to send accusations of ignorance to everyone over the net: news, TCM, academics that they ignore self organization about actions.
Buddhism cuts off self organization by restricting who becomes Buddha: they are not seen as having self originating mind NOW: as a part of life's process. Like a built in function that is ignored. Christianity is even worst: there is only one God and one Christ who can be the creator.
12/2/98 8:33 PM it feels good to have achieved my dreams of youth: 41 years on Preludium and 40 years on the meaning of being human! Collaboration as shared mind. Collaboration with June: 1/19/99 6:33 AM Material I need to set up my megsinet account: My computer - Dial-up-networking- right click properties. There are none. 2 control panel - network: Dial-up adapter - Bindings TCP/IP checked. Record a log file NO, Use IPX header compression yes. TCP/IP Dial-up adapter properties: Ip address obtain automatically. DNS Conf. Host ns1, Domain megsinet.net DNS server Search order: 18.104.22.168 22.214.171.124 Domain suffix: megsinet.net Wins config: Disable. Advanced: none Bindings is empty Gateway: 126.96.36.199 This is much different than their other instructions.
Being human is sharing one mind, so getting a response to how others plug my writings in to their mind, how they understand or don't care, is normal. My writings have no meaning until others connect and it is natural to respond to that connection.
This response is especially needed since I am introducing a new understanding of human nature and Mind based on the synergy [coming together] of new ideas in science and diverse spiritual traditions found in religions and metaphysics.
Introducing a new understanding of human nature and Mind based on the synergy [coming together] of new ideas in science and diverse spiritual traditions found in religions and metaphysics.
Who is Frederic Lens? Rama? Seen on Dateline NBC Sunday 9-20-98 6PM
Personal dialogue 12/3/98 7:26 AM I was talking to a friend yesterday about her after death experience. I have known her for a year and the more she learns from me the more she can put her experience into words. We met because her daughter wanted a mentor in a high school science project using fractals. Now she feels more able to explain fully connected limitless space and time that is sliced into 2D flatness that she calles "Sue" [her ego]. In compairing my experience with hers I have my most difficult moment in limiting to a target and subject vesa-a-vie a book. that is why the internet is so attractive. Yet I do not progress without feedback. Maybe I can suggest that you pick your favorite subject and you as target audience? That would be a start.
2 Sherry: The next topic is holographic Mind and Universe. I am going to assemble all the writings I know of relating to this topic and comment on them as well as using them for seeds to grow the next scale of detail ["scale of detail" is a reference to fractal self reference and iteration of a similar pattern]. This scale is like a map of a map of a map or hours to minuets to seconds and so on. But it can move both ways as a jigsaw puzzle fitting small pieces, each of which has a picture of something, together to form a "global" map. List of characteristics of holograms that apply directly to "Mind". First it is a map of creation and consciousness: the media upon which a physical hologram is "written" is the very laser [coherent] source of light used to illuminate the "scene - [picture as information]" that is reflected back to recombine with itself. The physical film only catches this pattern of interference between the original source and the way that original source was changed by its contact with reality. This happens because the laser light is split into two parts: one part keeps its purity of coherence and "shines" directly on the film. The other half of the laser light is directed to the scene or object to be captured which then reflects back to combine with the unaltered original source meeting at the film. What is captured is the change in phase resulting from the light reflecting from the object at different distances. Thus the light that started out all lined up in the same phase comes back in many different phases. Clocks with hands are one of many maps of phase spaces. [A space is a collection of objects usually with specific properties]. So a laser would be mapped by countless [billions and billions] of diodes all collected together on the hour hand until they shinned brighter than the sun! Then the laser light reflected from the object back to the clock would be at different hours and would knock the remaining diodes off the hour hand to be distributed in different heaps all around the clock. This is the phase code! Then if a large group of diodes lined up with the hour hand [which represents the original laser source] were "shinned" on the code that was "captured" - "saved" - recorded on the clock, the diodes that were knocked out of place when they hit the original half of diodes would return to their original state that that they had after the hit the scene of the hologram. This new laser light is said to "reconstruct" the original scene. It is as if in the first place each "reflected" diode connected [interfered] with one "original" diode so that they both ended up in a third place [code], and the reconstructing laser undid, as an inverse process, what happened in the first process. Now, if the entire biosphere is already written in holographic code, then if a being shined the original coherent source that created the code in the first place, valah! The material or information or protein originally coded appears immediately as if by magic: without any calculation or procedure or steps. That sure feels like the nature of consciousness: especially how I just look at something or have a single exposure to it and immediately appears a complementary and congruent structure. Another property of holograms is that the coherent source can be another hologram! Also many holograms can be coded on the same space: some can be of different frequency as if one different hologram can be coded on each hour by the minuet hand and 60 more per hour with the second hand. 0 What am I leading up to? That during the billions of years of evolution of life in the seas, those life forms that found the most stable coherent sources to write code would have been the most successful, [survival of the fittest] and that those stable sources are found in our solar system as the planets! That the planets in relationship to each other are like hour, minuet and second hands within their own phase spaces, and that the same fractal processes that create self similar structures that are at smaller and smaller scales to the original would be utilized.
10/11/98 3:12 PM The procedure that writes or maps data in holographic mind as the movements of the planets seen as scanning a hologram and mapping to another location are like constructing a multi-dimensional puzzle where some pieces connect different puzzles together! Thus a "truth" or useful map is one where the different levels help each other: are synergetic.
Is it possible that the coherent source for holographic reptilian brain is the polarization of sunlight?
xrt 1 Sherry:
I am grateful for two complementary aspects of our conversations: friendship and as a co-worker. As a friend I share my thoughts as they emerge both in response to your concerns and in sharing my newest developing chaotic unpolished penetrating insights. Of course the later are untested within a community of viewpoints and as you are observing, do not make much sense in this raw state.
In the area as co-worker I recognize your involvement with the Buddhist community, your background as a therapist-healer and desire to "heal" humanity as parallel to many of my life experiences but especially connected to my hope to awaken humans to what has already been scientifically been proven, but cannot be utilized because of the current shape - structure of belief, which includes how humans approach science.
This belief, called heart-mind in Chinese, relates to the heart chakra and what we "take to heart" as important regardless of complementary positions or opposition from any other source.
This chakra of 12 petals is maybe the most studied in traditional sources, although the 1st and 3rd are not far behind. I see it as the seat of the soul often symbolized by the Star of David. I also see the I Ching and Astrology as two primary areas of investigation regarding this structure.
My history of cultures starts with the use of this chakra by religions of the last 3,000 years to produce a unified belief map that is shared by everyone as a requirement of membership in that culture - civilization. I see this as the result of 10,000 years of the development of agri-culture and its need for cooperation for the production of food and the newly emerging idea that there is a global central organizing principle for the universe which emerged from the necessity to follow the laws of the nature of plants and the seasons. The best metaphor I found is that religions and now universities learned-discovered how to clone orientation of the heart chakra. I believe that Buddha awoke to this process and tried to teach this enlightenment to others, but even he warned that following generations would use his teaching for the cloning process to put humans to sleep using the teachings of awakening. This becomes possible when "becoming a Buddha" is seen as difficult: taking many lifetimes and much effort. What emerges is a fractal of heart-mind which I will get to later. So why is it important to open this discussion now? Here? Because the material I have discovered is so self evident and has been in the public domain for 10 or more years, and the way I put it was incompletely articulated in other books, that I know there is another process involved which requires humans to ignore it. What is "it"? Brains as studied in the mathematics of neural networks and all other living systems are self organizing, which property excludes the possibility of direct supervision by others in learning and control. The best illustration of this is compairing humans to modern generic computers: humans or animals do not have places to insert disks or manipulate with the mouse, telephone or keyboard. Any human program must be created-organized within based on what see and hear: no one can move our muscles for us. So how did we create cultures? By sharing ourselves in virtual pieces of our brains and maps of how those pieces fit together that can be "plugged into" other humans creating a situation where we all "live as if in a single virtual skull": One Mind! The virtual pieces of our brain called language and maps in Arts, Drama, Music and now science have no meaning or function in themselves until they are "plugged into" the same functional place for all who share that culture. Then they also become self organizing neural networks! But the mathematics of self organizing neural nets has demonstrated that even if they are plugged into the same functional place as evidenced by outputting the correct answers to similar inputs, the internal organization will be unique for each individual! So the same answer may emerge with very unique contexts or clothing for each individual. [That last sentence is a total surprise for me! So now I understand the map of biology pointed to by dressing differently. And that I have stumbled on what separates me from others: how I dress my thoughts!] Anyway these maps of traditional non-scientific cultures contain much direct structural information about Mind as holographic and fractal and fuzzy which I find lots of fun! Especially since music is one of the best of these maps. I am really enjoying finding all the examples of laser [coherent] sources for writing mind and mind code which are built into culture like morals, laws, common sense and what we ignore because it seems so self evident: like my little discovery today of clothing as representing the self organizing brain.
I bring up now the use of mathematics. It has a very spiritual place for me: and that statement is how I want to "dress" all my modern science ideas in traditional garb. One of my metaphors is that I am a composer using the staff of tradition and the notes of mathematics. So I will connect - plug in the math to mind and spiritual culture and if I didn't then it is a sign I haven't fully understood or plugged it in myself! I feel if other humans plug into the scientific - biological - mathematical certainty of One-Mind it would open the real possibility of peace on earth and serenity in our human interactions. The other stuff seems like "icing on the cake" yet it is still one cake! I hope this "Fall suite" cloth my ideas with clarity that may not have been present when first we communicated. By the way, Katya Walter who wrote "Tao of Chaos: DNA & the I Ching, Unlocking the code of the universe" lives in Austin and has a Kairos center: 1-800-624-8378
Considering the lack of dialogue response to my 40 years of research regarding the biological and mathematical nature of Mind and the human species with special emphasis regarding a synergy of modern science and traditional spiritual viewpoints including TCM [I am a qualified acupuncturist since 1981], I Ching, Buddhism and more; I am altering my open to any offer of research results to only those who demonstrate a strong interest and desire a dialogue. To facilitate this I include some biographical info. If you are still interested please reply with some personal background including birthday.
Since my sudden enlightenment experience in May 1958 when I became a living Buddha without any prior contact with Buddhism in this lifetime I have taken up the task of synergizing modern science with the human efforts of the last 3,000 years to know himself and map Mind/spirit/body. My first approach is as an Artist and mathematician with a very skeptical approach to mystical traditions. After many years of personal engagement with Ramakrishna, Buddhist and Christian societies, I clearly understood that I had met the traditional conditions for being an enlightened being, but that I would not be allowed to work as a Buddhist or Christian. I had discovered that modern science is the new spiritual development, but is mutually ignored: science ignoring the efforts of traditional religion / medicine and visa-versa. In 1966 I independently became aware of the connection between life and the cosmos, but subsequent studies of traditional approaches showed why science considered this "superstition", so I undertook to independently develop models and theories that relate directly to science, evolution and the mathematics of holographic mind, general systems theory, fractals, self organizing systems and finally neural networks.
I believe that the mythical / symbolic language of TMC and other "mystical" traditions will find a firm foundation in these new developments of mathematics and science and I am willing to share my research to date. My research and models are presented in the open and immediately accessible scientific public domain language, not in the personalized versions used by traditional religions which require years of isolated study [called devotion] before they can be plugged into.
2 Thank you for your prompt reply. Your working with the pulses unexpectedly reminded me of a conversation I had with a distinguished Chinese Gentleman who was a senator in Taiwan and a member of the Imperial family and my Tia Chi teacher in 1967. To my total surprise he totally repudiated the idea of pulse diagnosis which revealed my bias that all educated Chinese respected TCM.
I have many theories - models - explanations that impact on TCM. At this stage of development I cannot claim the status of scientific theory for much of this and then only if others accept my extension of the requirements for experimental validation. [which in itself is a new development to be explained later]. I would welcome the opportunity to develop data normalization in a modern experimental setting. I do not regret that these ideas have not been prematurely released, because my Buddha mind has not given the go-ahead until now that a complete conceptual foundation has emerged and the intellectual tools of the scientific public domain fit the work. [speaking of which the attached book by one of the pioneers in Neural network Math details how Buddhist thinkers developed Fuzzy Logic 1,000 years before 1988. I can clearly see the moment in 1966 when I had a deep insight into Nargajuna's statements: "Neither being, nor non-being, nor both, nor not both" almost as clear as my moment of enlightenment or the moment of penetrating insight into the connection of living systems and the cosmos.] I promised to be clear about my use of terms so I will explain Buddha mind: it is the self organizing non-verbal neural networks that have roots in the 15-200 million year old evolutionary mammal and reptilian systems that emerge [are allowed into consciousness] when a person stops inhibiting their intelligence. [more later especially on the mammal brain as the fuzzy estimator called emotion and the reptilian structures as primary context in acupuncture.]
At present I am lecturing on the nature of the virtual one-mind-space developed as the neocortex evolved to allow human cultures to develop. As is pointed out in the mathematics of neural networks, only self organizing neural networks can be utilized in living systems [brains primarily]. Since outside supervision as found in human group activity from business to government as well as supervised learning in schools is then biologically impossible in self organizing systems, it took the development of shared language and maps for culture and civilization to emerge. This shared one mind as if we all shared a single virtual skull is pointed to by the construction of temples, cathedrals and other buildings in the shape of skulls. This one mind as well as other individual mind components are constructed using a similar process to that of the construction and viewing of a hologram, namely a source of coherence and a phase space for coding. Although some of the ideas of holographic mind were introduced in the 60's when I also first encountered them, the emphasis was on the distributed properties and not on the process itself. For me the primary example of a 4 phase coding space is the DNA itself which of course has all the properties of a holographic process. This includes the property of consciousness to construct reality without a computational process which is the case if our reality is already coded in a phase space with the basis of creation of that code being consciousness. Then just as coherent light of the same frequency and vector angle will non-computationally reconstruct the interference pattern into its original information. Other examples of phase spaces are the 26+- letters of the alphabet, the notes of a key signature in Music. [I am a classical symphonic double bassist since 1955]. But especially the different numbers of the "lotus petals" of the chakras that are mirrored in the ground states of the many fractal dimensions of the complete I Ching of 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 and 10 yin/yang lines. Time as in clocks and time signatures of music and biological / cosmic cycles, and modular systems and cards are also maps of phase spaces. Especially a shuffle of a deck of cards in solitaire game [many varieties] represents a holographic phase code in multi-coherent phase space of 10 [or fuzzy 13] ,4 and 2 with a fully fuzzy card: Joker. This is a map of the 3rd 10 petal chakra in a multiple space or the I Ching of 5 lines. Various cultural descriptions of coherence are given from Qi to the lights of consciousness, of the Aura, and after death experiences. An especially clear description is given in the first words of the Judeo-Christian Bible where "God" started with chaos [incoherence] and separated it into day and night. Then the seven days of creation refer to the construction of holographic mind as do the 7 chakras as overlapping coherent sources. Then the description of this type of coherence would be the various moiré patterns [among many descriptions]. As evolution from single celled to multicellular to organisms with "organ systems" took place, this new interdynamial cooperative shared grouping can be accomplished by overlapping coherent sources for the construction of holographic mind-body. For me this is the clear model pointed to by the 5 element theory of TCM. If we continue this dialogue I will detail the precise coherent source for this including the exact 5 pointed graphic that skips one [Wood EWFM?] but has the precise sequence [WFEM Water?]. That's all for today. I expect your self organizing mind to have many complementary [as in oppositional or objections, not praise] directions which I hope you will share. Much must be skipped in an opening summary. Next I hope to introduce my ideas about the sympathetic and parasympathetic systems related to the meridians. Sincerely, David
James Paul Wow! It is still amazing to find another colleague with these interests. When I bring this up with "musicians" in the orchestra it seems I push them away. Yes I am a world savior or Buddha, but during this age I am just one of a community of science: the real "Christ" has become a complete viewpoint of the public domain where "truth" must be in a form that anyone can understand it without coming to be my disciple. What a marvelous spiritual development, which is exactly what science is: THE great leap forward in what Gautama and other Buddhas envisioned as true spirituality. Due to the nature of neural networks it is very difficult to arrive at new viewpoints: Data in - Rules out. The first thing our brains come up with are rules as part of coherence, which means the brain integrates! I have done a little reintegration of new material on my web page: See my web page for more at http://members.aol.com/only1mind You can find a fairly complete description of my enlightenment at a link near the bottom. I will fill in more upon your request. This is not personal - private but I never talked about it except to my students up to 1988 when I started to go to ACOA a 12 step group the day after I heard about it from a John Bradshaw show on Public TV. [Later I contacted him and got back a form letter]. I was very encouraged that there was some place that accepted being enlightened and learned to talk about my experience openly. The requirement of 12 step groups to be anonymous is one of its enlightened understandings: humans must disconnect from "normal" connections of family or class which is material of the older brain centers and only connect with others as gentle humans. As to my request to talk to Jim P. At GPS: When I joined the orchestra in 1965 as principle Bass, the first thing I did was tell the principle cello to sit down when she walked back to the bass section to "give me the official bowings". After that I wasted much of the orchestras time "standing up to" conductors or making suggestions. Anyway I only lasted until 1971 as principle and my attitude towards other bassists is without much respect. So as a beginner in the realm of enlightenment I brought a lot of shit on myself. As you may have discovered there is very little material about family or large group activities in the spiritual traditions. They retreated from family or political life into being monk-like. Of course I fully understand and am not criticizing because the enlightenment experience itself is loosing the inner connection to all group experience and becoming fully alive within as self organizing. Buddhists call it self originating mind or just Buddha. What is being awakened from is the experience of being cloned to "play a role" determined by family, peers and culture. As stated elsewhere on my web page, this "cloning" is very real and uses the same energy that connects the individual cells into multicellular organisms and groups of cells to become organs and still be part of a whole individual. Only last year did I "get the whole picture" of cloning, because the words have just been invented. So you can see [or I can see] that I have left the regular "path of enlightened ones", which is to bring others to enlightenment, to develop maps and maps of maps [metamaps] of being human. I did this essentially around 1970 or so after I had another major intuitive insight into the fact that life forms are connected to the cosmos. Before that I had "played the role" in Milwaukee and Chicago of Zen Master, but like many such before me had little patience with my students who were usually much older. As you know most of the traditional maps of connection with the cosmos are called Astrology and as a scientist I couldn't believe before or after my intuitive experience that "astrology" is a strong map. So I had to reinvent the whole thing which includes the reptilian brain maps from acupuncture [I became an acupuncturist to study this] and maps of the human brain from the heliocentric view. With these maps I have recently validated that Constantine in 230 became the second coming of Christ fulfilling the prophecies of establishing the Kingdom of God on earth [for them the world was the Roman empire] for 1,000 years. I want to share these and other findings with science and the public, but science will have nothing of it and other Astrologers are in the old prescientific traditions of "don't rock the boat". In 1972 and 1990 I presented these to some prominent astrologers who wouldn't look at it. ANYWAY: there is so much to say and discuss. Your input and/or collaboration is very valuable to me. This is the new spirituality where complementary and opposing views are not only valuable but also necessary. My maps must stand up to and map - explain all viewpoints and how they are arrived at: and they do!
My model of connection to the cosmos is that life systems use the cycles of time of the earth's rotation, nodal orientation and orbital position as well as the Moon's orbit and nodal orientation [height dimension] as the first coherent sources in the oldest structures of single cells up to the reptilian brain. That further evolution of the reptilian brain up to the mammal brain included the orbital positions of the planets as well as the passage of the Sun thru the galaxy and started to use multi-coherent sources as pairs of planets [and triples?]. These structures are locked into the DNA much as computer chips are hard wired with the code burned into ROM as 586 in all series up to RISC chips. The new evolution of the neocortex in the mammal brain leading up to Being Human allows orientation in time of the day on the day of birth to be used to differentiate between humans. Thus the same code can be loaded in different ways much as various operational codes are loaded into RISC chips which can then run many codes of different previous chips as if they are IBM and MAC at the same time. This virtual behavior is what is pointed to by the human types first introduced in Astrology maps such as LEO, Taurus, Scorpio or snake, Ox, tiger, rat, dog etc. in various systems. Then the human mind becomes a virtual ecological mapping onto a single species! The only problem is that very little code is written in the "real" or native code space of human being. This code space is beginning to be explored by mathematics, science, and with the new developments in psychology of NLP and cognitive therapies. But what else can the idea of "gOD" be but a view from a virtual animal of the human mind!!!! The ratio of the lower brains as fully engaged 1 to 20,000 in the neocortex is like [compared to] a solid to a gas [air] or mist which is similar to what is called "spirit". Thus the fuzzy, creative and enormous information and coding space of the neocortex which creates many, many maps from all angles of reality and even maps of the maps as minuets are maps of hours and seconds of minuets.
Then as we humans started to become self aware or self referent or find self similarities to map our inner processes [we invented "understanding"] we came up with very global transcendent concepts like spirit and God, because mathematical logic shows us that the map maker cannot make a map of itself. This is NOT a definition of God or god but of a process by which humans created self reflection and self understanding. But I am not avoiding definitions using science of those areas referred to as God. Nor am I saying that science has all the answers. But if we fail to see that many of the issues raised by thousands of years of religious belief are correctly answered by modern science, then we cannot move on the still other unsolved and uncharted areas. My assertions about the connection of the cosmos as sources of coherence with all life on earth is one such issue for me.
Group [religious or other] as protection from individual older brain reactions of reptilian strength: "being in the body of Christ" allows one to use the weak neocortex language brain to control the individually much stronger lower centers. Thus one can refer to group action such as law and police or moral rules.
The perception of unchanging eternal "God" is the view of DNA by the virtual mind which experiences the stability of DNA as the ancient of ancients. Thus the very first beginners procedures become embedded in our present process as if we had to use a team of horses to pull a modern car. Thus "gOD" does change and I AM god means I have access to the newest creativity - self organization of the Universe. Starting new is very important.
The angle of focus of coherent sources also is the angle of retrieval and information access! These personal angles of access is really all that can be different in humans! If the DNA and the biosphere is in phase space and embedded phase codes, then "consciousness" as coherent sources that "re-member" states and process are accessed differently from different phase angles. This is what the evolution from fixed phase angle for coherent source of the day-night cycle to a mapping of this day-night onto a virtual cycle based as if dawn was the Eastern horizon at the moment of ones birth such that any moment of a day can be a virtual dawn is the mapping of what in traditional astrology is called the house system. In this same direction of evolution, we developed individual orientation to the moons nodes, the Sun's nodes and recently the planet nodes. The Sun's nodes are the Qi of the back called constellations and the earth's node the signs as the Qi of the front. I am pursuing the connection between the moon's nodes and the cycle length of DNA as 19 turns.
These orientation processes are the procedures used to create individual consciousness and access to personal memories and procedures.
7/12/98 10:51 AM Paula I reached out to you thru my Mother and based on the understanding I have gained thru my studies of psychology, especially John Bradshaw and Alice Miller within the last 10 years, I wish to acknowledge and recognize you very real anger about my lack of parenting skills when we were a family and about how I was not there for you during your teen years and subsequently. I see now that I was playing the role of victim. My present conviction is that humans are self organizing but yet sharing ourselves with each other, so I will always respect your child rearing skills and never try to take over or interfere. I can only hope to share my resources at your request. I also understand that it is difficult for you to get to know or trust me so I can share my web page with you can know my ideas and convictions as a mature human: http://members.aol.com/only1mind
Above is the message I gave. Additionally: I feel Paula sees me as not OK and thus everything I say is turned to be bad. She claimed I "wanted" to take over how she raised her children. I don't remember even discussing any aspect of her children who I had not met and still do not know. As further evidence of this I refer to my decision to not reply to her letter sent after I moved to Appleton [at separation] because I did not want to poison the waters between her and her mother with my anger at her mother. That was the only resource I had at the time, but now I know that was not skillful or insightful. I also took her anger very personally as if I was saying "what did I do to you to deserve this". So I withdrew which I can now see as desertion.
Also at Dad's funeral I did not introduce myself as her children's grandfather because I tried to respect her wishes to not interfere. If I do not receive a reply within a week I will offer Sue or Britt as reference. Then if nothing I will ask for a final decision to separate or connect. Based on current action and how I perceive her twisting my actions, I have little hope for a connection.
Maps: see map of Sonny as TA parent - child with strong reliance on rules. This can be framed - mapped as shoulds based on tradition. A new map is of the strong ability to focus and block out [inhibit] extra - distracting behavior. This is what he can teach and not see his abilities as dependant on the rules [co-dependant] and his worth dependant on how others follow his rules [narcissistic]. His Afro-American traditions are based on strong following of rules [high morals] and Stacy is based on reframing - new maps. So I will reframe her "rebellion" and not letting others "tell her what to do" to reframing skills but without follow thru and focus beyond the moment. Living in the "NOW" can be chaos!
- Comment: I dont know why in this wiki-page, some line-breaks are not shown. You can see it in the mails which are separated by horizontal-rulers, there should be a line break after the greetings. The Source-Text has this Returns, so the structure is not lost, but only displayed with little mistakes.
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